So, I'm getting my nerves burned off tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, but I had a blessing the other day, saying this is the right path to take.
So, I know I'll be okay, I just really don't want to go through it! ugh!!!
But, we did get the tree up! Yea!!!
It was fun! I usually don't like Christmas music, do to the Marching Band fact of playing it all year...I just get so burned!
But, we listened to SheDaisy, Trisha Yearwood, and Sarah McLachlan's Christmas CD's. It was fun!!
We're still stuck in snow, we had two big storms back to back with record temps (it was -20 at my house!!!) and it's just icy and blah. Hard to drive in!
Anyhoo, starting to get back into the swing of things here!
Chelle }}i{{
Monday, December 14, 2009
Starting my 101 things in 1000 days again!
Ok, so I've decided to start my 101 things again!! I was only 55 days in it to begin with, but there are a lot of things on my list I had goals for that I can cross off.
So, I need to start over again, but I'm going to keep my list the same, as some of these goals were really big goals!
Look for some updates soon!!!
Chelle }}i{{
So, I need to start over again, but I'm going to keep my list the same, as some of these goals were really big goals!
Look for some updates soon!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Great Advice From Colbie Caillat..."Dog girl" my meet-n-greet experience
Mel and Me With Colbie!It's a little lengthy, sorry!! But soooo cool!!!
So, my best friend, Mel and I went to the Colbie Caillat concert. She was performing at the Casino I work for, so I was able to get free tickets and meet-n-greets. We were sooo excited! We LOVE Colbie!!!
So, the night before the concert, they were going to be checking in around my shift. A woman comes up and shows me her Hawaiian ID. I noticed the last name Caillat. I asked her if she was related to...she cut me off and grinned proudly, 'She's my daughter!!!!'
I got so excited and told her that I'm going and have meet-n-greets. I also told her thank you for raising what seems like a great kid. B/c her husband (Colbie's Dad) is a famous producer...he worked alot with Fleetwood Mac. And instead of saying 'hey dad, do me a fav.' Instead, she wrote her own songs and posted them on Myspace. I told her mom how much I respected that.
She thanked me and then asked if we allowed dogs in the hotel. I said yes, and she got excited and gushed, 'I have my friend in reno keeping our dog! Colbie hasn't seen her in months!!' So, I hooked her up to allow the dog in the hotel.
She then sat in the lounge to wait for colbie. I saw Colbie walk in and they headed up to their rooms. Her mom comes down an hour later with a signed autograph saying thanks! I was totally shocked! how down to earth she was! It was great!"
...too be continued...
Great Advice From Colbie Caillat..."Dog girl" my meet-n-greet experience - Con't
(This is the writen advice Colbie wrote in my book. She gave much more spoken advice...this was a turning point folks!!!!!!!)Then, the concert. Colbie was great! Mel and I were waiting to go in for the meet-n-greet.
I saw her mom again. I waved and said 'Hi Diane!' she said, 'Michelle!!!' and gave me a big hug! And again thanked me!
A woman whipped around and asked, 'Are you the dog lady?!' I laughed and said yes. I asked if she was the friend from Reno. She said yes, and I found out she lives out where we just bought a house. So, we swapped info and now talk all the time! She's nice!
Then, I met Colbies' Gma, she asked if I was the 'dog lady'. I laughed again, she shook my hand and thanked me too.
Then, we get back to meet Colbie, and I walk up and said, 'Apparently I'm 'the dog lady' in your family. I work here and checked in your mom last night.'
She smiled and exlaimed, 'Oh! Thanks for everything you've done for us, and your hotel has just been awesome!!'
I was floored! She knew MY name!! I then asked her as she was signing my book of songs I have, 'I'm a songwriter, what advice would you give me?'
She told me to write from the heart, be honest, sometimes writing from a different persepctive is a great way to get a song. She told me song 'Breakthrough' is actually about a friend and her relationship with her dad. So, now that song has a whole new meaning to me.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Long Road, Fresh Start
Wow! It's been a while since I've been on here!!!! I miss it! I miss my daily blogs. Life just got too crazy!
I'm doing good in school....I mean, at least I'm passing, lol.
We just moved into our new house!!! We love it!!!! It's twice the size of our old one, we pay $200 less a month!!! I love it!!!!!!!!!! It's was the right thing at the right time.
It hit me after our primary program, we had just found out we got the house, and we're just waiting to close. I walked into the primary room after the program and I just started tearing up.
When I was set apart as the Primary Chorister, I was promised that if I put my heart and soul in the calling, I'd had the things I needed in my life.
Well, it came true. I was able to have my breast reduction, I was lucky enough to see my dad before he died. I'm going back to school, and we have our new house.
I feel so lucky and so blessed!! I know that I am on the right track, and that I'm finally finding myself again. I hate feeling so lost sometimes. It just sucks.
Anyhoo,
Time for home work!!!
Chelle }}i{{
I'm doing good in school....I mean, at least I'm passing, lol.
We just moved into our new house!!! We love it!!!! It's twice the size of our old one, we pay $200 less a month!!! I love it!!!!!!!!!! It's was the right thing at the right time.
It hit me after our primary program, we had just found out we got the house, and we're just waiting to close. I walked into the primary room after the program and I just started tearing up.
When I was set apart as the Primary Chorister, I was promised that if I put my heart and soul in the calling, I'd had the things I needed in my life.
Well, it came true. I was able to have my breast reduction, I was lucky enough to see my dad before he died. I'm going back to school, and we have our new house.
I feel so lucky and so blessed!! I know that I am on the right track, and that I'm finally finding myself again. I hate feeling so lost sometimes. It just sucks.
Anyhoo,
Time for home work!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
How Great Shall Be Your Joy....My Testimony of Primary and Visiting Teaching
**names have been changed**
I want to share two things with you involving blessings and the church. Both came full circle this week for me, one of them tonight.
First of all, we have a house!!! Yea!!!! It just passed inspection, and we close on the 14th!!!
Well, when I got set-apart as the primary chorister almost a year ago...I was promised two things. I was promised, that if I put my heart and soul in this calling, that these children will know the gospel and Christ through me and through song, and that everything will fall into place the way it is needed in our own lives. Well, I did put my heart and soul into this calling. I love it so much! It is my favorite calling by far.
Sunday was the primary program, and the kids sang AMAZING!!! I was soooo wired after wards b/c I was sooo proud of them!! As I walked into the Primary Room from Sacrament, it hit me and I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that EVERYTHING came true. These children DO know Christ through song!!! And although it has been overshadowed by some grief (car accident, my dad, my friend's baby dying)....our life has worked out. We've become more financially stable, I was FINALLY able to have my breast reduction surgery, and we are moving into our own house!!!!! We are getting twice the house for about $250 less!!!! You can't beat that!!!! My life has been soooo blessed and I know it is in part because of my calling.
The second is the wonderful blessing of being a visiting teacher. My life long friend Terri (the above-mentioned friend who lost her baby) and I re-connected in this ward. She was in Primary with me and also my V.T. Companion. Without her, I probably wouldn't have done my v.t., as I hadn't received a testimony from it....as I've never had regular v.t.'s.
Well, we got an inactive sister. Sara. She let us in, and we had a WONDERFUL time!!! I remember telling Terri that I had a strong impression that her and I were the key to getting her back to church....and we were. We watched her grow and start coming every week. Then, she got a calling in Primary....soon her hubby started coming. Now they are regulars. They pay their tithing and are soooo close to going back to the temple, it's amazing!!!
Well, I swung by to visit with her, as this is probably my last month to visit her, being we're moving next month, and Terri moved this month out of the ward. We sat and talked. She thanked me for coming and doing our v.t.ing. She said, " I have had visiting teachers come and visit me, and I've always welcomed them in and thanked them for coming...When you and Terri first came into my home, you had this Spirit about you both....I forgot what it felt like, and I want that back in my home. I don't want it to ever leave again." I told her how proud and amazed I am to see this change too, but we cannot take all the credit, for she's come along way too in changing.
After I left, I was just in tears, so grateful, so full of joy. I'm reminded of the scripture, "And if ye bring even one soul unto me, how great shall be your joy." Well, my heart is about to burst. One person can make a HUGE difference in someone's life....and my joy is for her...
I just needed to share these things, for my heart is about to burst out. I have a strong testimony of this gospel, and of the Primary and Visiting Teaching....How Great Shall Be Your Joy indeed.....
I want to share two things with you involving blessings and the church. Both came full circle this week for me, one of them tonight.
First of all, we have a house!!! Yea!!!! It just passed inspection, and we close on the 14th!!!
Well, when I got set-apart as the primary chorister almost a year ago...I was promised two things. I was promised, that if I put my heart and soul in this calling, that these children will know the gospel and Christ through me and through song, and that everything will fall into place the way it is needed in our own lives. Well, I did put my heart and soul into this calling. I love it so much! It is my favorite calling by far.
Sunday was the primary program, and the kids sang AMAZING!!! I was soooo wired after wards b/c I was sooo proud of them!! As I walked into the Primary Room from Sacrament, it hit me and I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that EVERYTHING came true. These children DO know Christ through song!!! And although it has been overshadowed by some grief (car accident, my dad, my friend's baby dying)....our life has worked out. We've become more financially stable, I was FINALLY able to have my breast reduction surgery, and we are moving into our own house!!!!! We are getting twice the house for about $250 less!!!! You can't beat that!!!! My life has been soooo blessed and I know it is in part because of my calling.
The second is the wonderful blessing of being a visiting teacher. My life long friend Terri (the above-mentioned friend who lost her baby) and I re-connected in this ward. She was in Primary with me and also my V.T. Companion. Without her, I probably wouldn't have done my v.t., as I hadn't received a testimony from it....as I've never had regular v.t.'s.
Well, we got an inactive sister. Sara. She let us in, and we had a WONDERFUL time!!! I remember telling Terri that I had a strong impression that her and I were the key to getting her back to church....and we were. We watched her grow and start coming every week. Then, she got a calling in Primary....soon her hubby started coming. Now they are regulars. They pay their tithing and are soooo close to going back to the temple, it's amazing!!!
Well, I swung by to visit with her, as this is probably my last month to visit her, being we're moving next month, and Terri moved this month out of the ward. We sat and talked. She thanked me for coming and doing our v.t.ing. She said, " I have had visiting teachers come and visit me, and I've always welcomed them in and thanked them for coming...When you and Terri first came into my home, you had this Spirit about you both....I forgot what it felt like, and I want that back in my home. I don't want it to ever leave again." I told her how proud and amazed I am to see this change too, but we cannot take all the credit, for she's come along way too in changing.
After I left, I was just in tears, so grateful, so full of joy. I'm reminded of the scripture, "And if ye bring even one soul unto me, how great shall be your joy." Well, my heart is about to burst. One person can make a HUGE difference in someone's life....and my joy is for her...
I just needed to share these things, for my heart is about to burst out. I have a strong testimony of this gospel, and of the Primary and Visiting Teaching....How Great Shall Be Your Joy indeed.....
We Bought a House!!!!!!!
We Have a HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It just passed inspection! We close on the 14th!! I'm doing cartwheels!!!
It's out in Lemon Valley (a suburb of Reno).
It is 1675 sqft.
The Ironic thing? We will have almost DOUBLE the house (we live in 950 sqft duplex) for about $250 less a month!!! You CAN'T beat that!!!!!!!!!!!
It's going to be our own home too!!! I'm sooo excited!!! We did qualify for a home loan through the bank, but Aaron's Gma is loaning us the money. We'll pay a little less interest, and she'll be getting more interest than it would be just sitting in a bank. It's a win/win situation. :-)
It's in a court, single story, 3 bed, 2 bath. It's beautiful!!! I can't wait!!!!!
I'll post pics as soon as I can!!!!
It just passed inspection! We close on the 14th!! I'm doing cartwheels!!!
It's out in Lemon Valley (a suburb of Reno).
It is 1675 sqft.
The Ironic thing? We will have almost DOUBLE the house (we live in 950 sqft duplex) for about $250 less a month!!! You CAN'T beat that!!!!!!!!!!!
It's going to be our own home too!!! I'm sooo excited!!! We did qualify for a home loan through the bank, but Aaron's Gma is loaning us the money. We'll pay a little less interest, and she'll be getting more interest than it would be just sitting in a bank. It's a win/win situation. :-)
It's in a court, single story, 3 bed, 2 bath. It's beautiful!!! I can't wait!!!!!
I'll post pics as soon as I can!!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
My Dad Died Last Night...
I got a call about 2:30 last night saying my dad was in the hospital, he had a massive heart attack. And they were still working on him, but it didn't look to good.
At 3:20, my brother called me back saying "He's gone". A deafness rang in my ears. I sobbed violently while Aaron held me in his arms until I fell asleep.
I'm so glad I was down there last week. I was able to spend sometime with my dad before he went.
And now? I'm off to Vegas again....
These are the last pictures I have of him....so I thought it right to post them.
He had his faults, his short comings, but he was a great dad growing up. He taught me many things....my favorite memories are of him teaching me how to fish.
Cariol Roy Dobbs 5/28/45-8/21/09
At 3:20, my brother called me back saying "He's gone". A deafness rang in my ears. I sobbed violently while Aaron held me in his arms until I fell asleep.
I'm so glad I was down there last week. I was able to spend sometime with my dad before he went.
And now? I'm off to Vegas again....
These are the last pictures I have of him....so I thought it right to post them.
He had his faults, his short comings, but he was a great dad growing up. He taught me many things....my favorite memories are of him teaching me how to fish.
Cariol Roy Dobbs 5/28/45-8/21/09
At my mom's Birthday dinner
Holding up Xander at the Aquarium
Mom, Dad and Xander
Monday, August 17, 2009
Xander's First Baseball Game!
Daddy and Me having our own fun. ;-)
Having Fun!!!
Da da da da da! CHARGE!!!! Xander's really getting into the game!
Me and My Sissy, Angel!
The beginning of the game, they we're soooo enthralled!!
So, we have an AMAZING new stadium and a new minor league team (it's the AZ Diamondbacks Minor Team) called the Reno Aces. So, we went out, and had a GREAT TIME!!!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
More Vegas Photos
The Ride Home....I SWEAR I'm looking at the road!! 
Xander at the Silverton Casino...a REALLY cool Aquarium!
Aaron and Xander at the M&M Factory
Me and My Momma!
Happy Birthday Mom!! At the Claim Jumper.
Lion King, Vegas, Family, Recovery
So, I'm still recovering from having my boobies hacked off, but I'm feeling much better! Just had my staples removed yesterday! Feel SOOOOO much better with those out!!
We also went to Vegas, saw Lion King in Play form and hung out with the folks. I'm going to add more photos in a minute, in another post, as you can only add a few at a time. :-)
We had great fun! Lion King was Phenomenal! Xander loved it!!! It was positively amazing!!
We stayed at my folk's apartment, hung out with my bro and his wife a lot, and also got to see an old friend that I hadn't seen in over a year! Heather, Welcome to Vegas, can't wait to see you more!! :-)
Outside my folk's apartment....for reference...Xander is 3 1/2 feet tall....
Uncle Monkey and Xander sword fighting with Japenese Practice Swords
Xander with Cousin Bailey! So cute!!!
Me and my bunny!
Pic of Show.
We also went to Vegas, saw Lion King in Play form and hung out with the folks. I'm going to add more photos in a minute, in another post, as you can only add a few at a time. :-)
We had great fun! Lion King was Phenomenal! Xander loved it!!! It was positively amazing!!
We stayed at my folk's apartment, hung out with my bro and his wife a lot, and also got to see an old friend that I hadn't seen in over a year! Heather, Welcome to Vegas, can't wait to see you more!! :-)
Outside my folk's apartment....for reference...Xander is 3 1/2 feet tall....
Uncle Monkey and Xander sword fighting with Japenese Practice Swords
Xander with Cousin Bailey! So cute!!!
Me and my bunny!
Pic of Show.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
No Mas Pechos!!!
The boobies are gone! i just got home this morning. They took of 5 pounds total!!! And I'm still a "Full 'D'". Crazy!!
So, I'm feeling ok, still sore, and my incisions feel like they are itching....so, that's not fun at all!!
Thanks for all your well wishes! I should be up on my feet in no time!!!
Chelle }}i{{
So, I'm feeling ok, still sore, and my incisions feel like they are itching....so, that's not fun at all!!
Thanks for all your well wishes! I should be up on my feet in no time!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Monday, August 3, 2009
How Time Flies...It's Already Been Six Years....
Wow! What a rush! My whole life from the time I asked Aaron to Jr. Prom just came back...This came a day late, as I had all day church and work yesterday....so, we're celebrating today. :-)
....the time we went on the M.S. Dixie Cruise with a whole bunch of friends
....the time he took in a ride in his new car for an hour and just talked....the times he danced with me
....the time we went to see Remember the Titans...the time when the song Kryptonite came on, on new years eve, and he pulled out the superman keychain, "asking me if I would still call him my superman."
...the time we said goodbye for two, long years
....all those letters for those two years
....the fallen in love with him over them even more
....and when he came home
...the roses on my car all the time after work
....when he kissed for the first time outside the movie theater...how to lose a guy in ten days....yeah, that didn't work. He still here. I knew then I wanted him to be the only one to ever kiss me like that again
....When he promised me time and eternity at 1 a.m. outside of the gates of where we would be married. There was a stuffed orange monkey hidden, holding my ring. He knew me too well already
....when we promised forever to each other
....Hawaii...need I say more?
...The day I said, "Hey dad." to him
....the day Xander was born
....all the mistakes I made, all the things I've done, all the irritating things we do to each other on purpose
...and he still loves me more than ever
....he is the air I breathe, he is my other half, my better half. I've never felt so complete before
....We fit together so well
....I never thought I could love him more than I did on that beautiful day in august....
...but here I sit, 6 years later, more in love with him as I could ever be.
....the time we went on the M.S. Dixie Cruise with a whole bunch of friends
....the time he took in a ride in his new car for an hour and just talked....the times he danced with me
....the time we went to see Remember the Titans...the time when the song Kryptonite came on, on new years eve, and he pulled out the superman keychain, "asking me if I would still call him my superman."
...the time we said goodbye for two, long years
....all those letters for those two years
....the fallen in love with him over them even more
....and when he came home
...the roses on my car all the time after work
....when he kissed for the first time outside the movie theater...how to lose a guy in ten days....yeah, that didn't work. He still here. I knew then I wanted him to be the only one to ever kiss me like that again
....When he promised me time and eternity at 1 a.m. outside of the gates of where we would be married. There was a stuffed orange monkey hidden, holding my ring. He knew me too well already
....when we promised forever to each other
....Hawaii...need I say more?
...The day I said, "Hey dad." to him
....the day Xander was born
....all the mistakes I made, all the things I've done, all the irritating things we do to each other on purpose
...and he still loves me more than ever
....he is the air I breathe, he is my other half, my better half. I've never felt so complete before
....We fit together so well
....I never thought I could love him more than I did on that beautiful day in august....
...but here I sit, 6 years later, more in love with him as I could ever be.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Jesus is in my Hear..and Eating Breatfast!!
So, my son last night was getting scared and wanting me to lay down with him. I told him know (we're trying to get away from that, and he uses every ploy imaginable to get us to.)
I got the idea to explain to him that when mommy and daddy.."And Koda (our dog)" he adds, are not in the room with you there is someone else who is ALWAYS with you. He's always watching over you while you sleep, he'll protect you from all the monsters....etc.
I asked him where he thought Jesus was in the room right now? He didn't know. I point to his heart and said, "He's always right here...in your heart and he will never go away."
Well, it seemed to work and he went to bed without much further complaint.
So, waking up this morning, he comes up to me and points to his heart. "Momma, Jesus is in my heart!!"I smiled and said, "That's right!"He then said, "Yup! And he's eating breakfast right now!"
I started laughing so hard! Out of the mouths of babes!!!!!
I got the idea to explain to him that when mommy and daddy.."And Koda (our dog)" he adds, are not in the room with you there is someone else who is ALWAYS with you. He's always watching over you while you sleep, he'll protect you from all the monsters....etc.
I asked him where he thought Jesus was in the room right now? He didn't know. I point to his heart and said, "He's always right here...in your heart and he will never go away."
Well, it seemed to work and he went to bed without much further complaint.
So, waking up this morning, he comes up to me and points to his heart. "Momma, Jesus is in my heart!!"I smiled and said, "That's right!"He then said, "Yup! And he's eating breakfast right now!"
I started laughing so hard! Out of the mouths of babes!!!!!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Do LDS Women Avoid Me??!!
I'm really bugged about tonight. I made plans with about 8 LDS women from my ward to go see Harry Potter and probably go have ice cream afterwards to discuss the movie.
I took the Xander to the Water park today, we had a blast...I get one text and a voice mail saying 2 couldn't make it. Found out a third and fourth then couldn't make it....ok, still four that I know of coming....
So, I rush home to shower the chlorine off me and run to the movies thinking they'll be there....no one. I was really hurt!
I was hoping to have a fun girls night out with some good LDS women. Everytime I try, something happens. It sucks!
What bothers me more is, that I tend to connect more with non-LDS women. They are always there for me when the chips are down. They brought me food, a heating back and even came over and helped me can a million pounds of dry goods....etc, etc...
These women are great women...is it me? I know I'm not the "Typical" LDS woman. I swear, I sometimes gamble (rarely), and I love loud music. I don't bake....I'm not a stay at home mom. I'm not a big time sewer...I don't scrapbook to save my life. I honestly can't sit for hours just trying to get one page of photos "just right".
Am I a non-LDS woman trapped in an LDS body? I feel like that sometimes. I go against the grain....not because I want to be a rebel...that's just the way I am and think.
Why the hell does it bother so many LDS women? Why do I get called out on shit....when I follow my faith and do what I'm supposed to....to the best of my ability....
Sorry, this ended in a different place than it started. I was just looking so forward to bonding with some LDS women in my ward who I get along with at church....I just don't know what happened.....
I'm a little disgruntled, I guess!
Oh well, good night!!!!
Chelle }}i{{
I took the Xander to the Water park today, we had a blast...I get one text and a voice mail saying 2 couldn't make it. Found out a third and fourth then couldn't make it....ok, still four that I know of coming....
So, I rush home to shower the chlorine off me and run to the movies thinking they'll be there....no one. I was really hurt!
I was hoping to have a fun girls night out with some good LDS women. Everytime I try, something happens. It sucks!
What bothers me more is, that I tend to connect more with non-LDS women. They are always there for me when the chips are down. They brought me food, a heating back and even came over and helped me can a million pounds of dry goods....etc, etc...
These women are great women...is it me? I know I'm not the "Typical" LDS woman. I swear, I sometimes gamble (rarely), and I love loud music. I don't bake....I'm not a stay at home mom. I'm not a big time sewer...I don't scrapbook to save my life. I honestly can't sit for hours just trying to get one page of photos "just right".
Am I a non-LDS woman trapped in an LDS body? I feel like that sometimes. I go against the grain....not because I want to be a rebel...that's just the way I am and think.
Why the hell does it bother so many LDS women? Why do I get called out on shit....when I follow my faith and do what I'm supposed to....to the best of my ability....
Sorry, this ended in a different place than it started. I was just looking so forward to bonding with some LDS women in my ward who I get along with at church....I just don't know what happened.....
I'm a little disgruntled, I guess!
Oh well, good night!!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Choices in Life....
I'm learning all about choices. The negative and the positive. I feel a lot of negativity in my life right now....yet so much positivity. It's interesting really.
I know I'm on the right path, I know it's the right way. But sometimes the path curves and you can't see the good that's ahead. Sometimes there is the biggest mountain you have to climb, but once you do, you look back and admire the view of all the accomplishments you've made.
I've had, it just seems a stream of bad luck. I got in another car wreck. I feel just in that moment in my life....I got thrown back to start. It has taken me four years of pain, drugs, therapy....all of the above....to get into a more good days then bad days. And then to have it all literally crash around me. It's really dug me into a hole. I'm trying to get out, I really am! Some days, it's just so hard.
And then, today at work, I get suspended for three days. I've been there over a year and NEVER had a variance on my bank (meaning I'm over or short). I just moved shifts, and I deal with a new supervisor, one that I'm not fond of. She's lazy, she's a bitch, and she has favorites. Which really pisses me off. My dear friend Brenda is my night super there, and she treats me just the same as everyone else....probably why I like her so much! We understand each other that it's just business. We work very hard at not mixing it.
Anyhoo, I digress so she pulled me in the office one day (about a month ago) and said she doesn't know, "How I do it on night shift." But on her shift, I'm going WAY too slow. She pretty much said I should shove the customers right out the door, not be myself and hurry.
I was so surprised by this, as I feel I'm quick and efficient. And whenever someone calls in, I'm usually the first one they call as I'm good.
So, I had the variances, and was mad at myself. I was written up and told to slow down. I then talked to the main kahuna there....she pulled a paper out from someone even higher than her and quoted what he wrote....saying I was one of the best employees, I always get positive comments....blah, blah, blah. Then my boss tells me that I've been awesome, she doesn't want to do it, b/c she knows the reason why...I was just so mentally messed up about it. But, it's the rules. She said I still have a job, and I'm still one of the best out there.
It made me feel okay.
Well, back in the hole I go, I'll take my lumps, I've made my choice not to let this get me down. Although I'm horribly pissed at the one woman...I'm okay. It was still my choice and my fault. She didn't touch my bank.
But, I won't let it get me down. I'm starting to turn the corner here. I see my surgery, Vegas and School right around the corner....I just have to get there first!!!
I know I'm on the right path, I know it's the right way. But sometimes the path curves and you can't see the good that's ahead. Sometimes there is the biggest mountain you have to climb, but once you do, you look back and admire the view of all the accomplishments you've made.
I've had, it just seems a stream of bad luck. I got in another car wreck. I feel just in that moment in my life....I got thrown back to start. It has taken me four years of pain, drugs, therapy....all of the above....to get into a more good days then bad days. And then to have it all literally crash around me. It's really dug me into a hole. I'm trying to get out, I really am! Some days, it's just so hard.
And then, today at work, I get suspended for three days. I've been there over a year and NEVER had a variance on my bank (meaning I'm over or short). I just moved shifts, and I deal with a new supervisor, one that I'm not fond of. She's lazy, she's a bitch, and she has favorites. Which really pisses me off. My dear friend Brenda is my night super there, and she treats me just the same as everyone else....probably why I like her so much! We understand each other that it's just business. We work very hard at not mixing it.
Anyhoo, I digress so she pulled me in the office one day (about a month ago) and said she doesn't know, "How I do it on night shift." But on her shift, I'm going WAY too slow. She pretty much said I should shove the customers right out the door, not be myself and hurry.
I was so surprised by this, as I feel I'm quick and efficient. And whenever someone calls in, I'm usually the first one they call as I'm good.
So, I had the variances, and was mad at myself. I was written up and told to slow down. I then talked to the main kahuna there....she pulled a paper out from someone even higher than her and quoted what he wrote....saying I was one of the best employees, I always get positive comments....blah, blah, blah. Then my boss tells me that I've been awesome, she doesn't want to do it, b/c she knows the reason why...I was just so mentally messed up about it. But, it's the rules. She said I still have a job, and I'm still one of the best out there.
It made me feel okay.
Well, back in the hole I go, I'll take my lumps, I've made my choice not to let this get me down. Although I'm horribly pissed at the one woman...I'm okay. It was still my choice and my fault. She didn't touch my bank.
But, I won't let it get me down. I'm starting to turn the corner here. I see my surgery, Vegas and School right around the corner....I just have to get there first!!!
Friday, July 10, 2009
School Classes and Other Randoms...
Well, the water heater broke...AGAIN!! So, the guy came out yesterday and fixed it. We finally have hot water!! Yea!!!
Aaron keeps buying those "Axe-Body spray" things...and they're just horrid! They smell good, but I can get over that Aerosol-ish smelling part of it. So, I'm going to surprise him today by going to Macy's and buying him some REAL stuff!! yea!!
My back's finally starting to feel a little better after they gave me those wonderful shots in my spine. If it continues to work, they're going to do it on my neck...which is good and bad! I just hope that it's doesn't hurt ten times worse right after the procedure!! yuck!
Who knows? I might not even need it! My reduction is in 25 days and counting. This might seriously clear-up my neck problems! Woohoo!!!
I did register for school! I'm sooo excited!!! I'm taking three classes, and all ones I'm just thrilled about! I'm just glad that they were "required" classes for me to graduate!
I'm taking "Writing Poetry" which, can't get much better than that!!! You know?! I have a natural gift for poetry, this is a for sure "Building on my talents" thing.
Then it's World Religions! I'm soooo stoked about this one!!! I have an online group about various religions that I started. And since I've started it over a year ago, I've just found it soooo fascinating!! So now, I get to dig deeper!! :-)
And then, I had to take a US Constitution class, so I took intro to American Politics. This ought to be interesting. It's an online class, which is kinda new for me! But since, I campaigned for Ron Paul last year, I think it'll be a neat insight and help me really dig down on the issues at hand. I am a registered Libertarian (much too my republican family's chagrin...lol). I liked the Republican party, but didn't love it. I was always crossing party lines to vote. But when I read into more about the Lib Party, I knew, this was the right one for me!! *gets off soap box*
Ok, so I'm excited about school! I haven't been in a while!! yea!!
It starts 8/24, 20 days after my surgery! woohoo! busy aug!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Aaron keeps buying those "Axe-Body spray" things...and they're just horrid! They smell good, but I can get over that Aerosol-ish smelling part of it. So, I'm going to surprise him today by going to Macy's and buying him some REAL stuff!! yea!!
My back's finally starting to feel a little better after they gave me those wonderful shots in my spine. If it continues to work, they're going to do it on my neck...which is good and bad! I just hope that it's doesn't hurt ten times worse right after the procedure!! yuck!
Who knows? I might not even need it! My reduction is in 25 days and counting. This might seriously clear-up my neck problems! Woohoo!!!
I did register for school! I'm sooo excited!!! I'm taking three classes, and all ones I'm just thrilled about! I'm just glad that they were "required" classes for me to graduate!
I'm taking "Writing Poetry" which, can't get much better than that!!! You know?! I have a natural gift for poetry, this is a for sure "Building on my talents" thing.
Then it's World Religions! I'm soooo stoked about this one!!! I have an online group about various religions that I started. And since I've started it over a year ago, I've just found it soooo fascinating!! So now, I get to dig deeper!! :-)
And then, I had to take a US Constitution class, so I took intro to American Politics. This ought to be interesting. It's an online class, which is kinda new for me! But since, I campaigned for Ron Paul last year, I think it'll be a neat insight and help me really dig down on the issues at hand. I am a registered Libertarian (much too my republican family's chagrin...lol). I liked the Republican party, but didn't love it. I was always crossing party lines to vote. But when I read into more about the Lib Party, I knew, this was the right one for me!! *gets off soap box*
Ok, so I'm excited about school! I haven't been in a while!! yea!!
It starts 8/24, 20 days after my surgery! woohoo! busy aug!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Loans, College, Pain, Idiot Landlords
So, I just had my procedure where they stick me with tons of needles near my spine and put cortisone and numbing stuff. He said it should kick in in a day or two. Standing up and standing still is okay, not as much pain, but sitting and laying seems to be worse. I can't really find a happy medium right now. maybe in a couple days it'll be better. *crosses fingers*
I asked to be put out, but he said to try this stuff (I forgot what it's called, he said it's like Valium). It made me relaxed, although I did feel the whole thing. At one point, I yelped and started to cry. He asked, "Does it burn?" I said yes. He said, "That's a good thing." yeah, right! The old way, used to do 8-10 injections. He did it a different way, I only had two puncter sights. It looked like he had a bendy type needle, and just went up one side and deposited at each location. It hurt pretty good when he pulled it out fast. I guess that's the band-aid theory. Do it fast, not slow!
I just finished filling out most of our home loan papers. I just have a few questions, and e-mailed her tonight. But it looks like it's going to be good! There are a lot of foreclosed homes in the area of our ward. We love it out here in Sparks. It's a nice quite neighborhood. No one bugs you. We only talk to our actual neighbor. They're great. We sit sometimes outside in my camping chairs and chat while our kids play out front. We're gonna miss them!
I was supposed to scan my W2's and send them to the college, but for some reason, my scanners not wanting to co-operate. So, I'm gonna have to head out there tomorrow so we can finish up with the financial aid paper work. It looks promising! :-)
I'm sick of my landlord! First, he moved to Idaho and changed his phone # and address without letting us know. Sounds fishy, right? Yeah, I thought so too. Then, our hot water heater's been on the fritz, and finally quite on Friday night. I called Jim, he conveniently had his phone off for the 4th of July weekend. And being emergencies on a holiday weekend cost an arm and a leg, we waited. he FINALLY called me on Monday. He gave his brother my number and said he'd call. Well, I talked to the bro today....he can't get here until Thursday, b/c he works in Carson. i told him not good enough. He said he'd swing by after work, probably 5:30-6 ish. I went to sleep, as i was very tired after my procedure. Woke up, no phone call, no brother.
So, I'm pissed. I just wrote him a "stern" e-mail saying this ain't cool, told him I'm calling someone to come and fix it and he'd better have a credit card or billing address they can send the bill. We'll see what happens.
It's a two edge sword with this kind of landlord. He never bugs you, or pops by, doesn't care if we paint the house whatever color we want....but when we really need him, he's not there. It's like pulling teeth. ugh!
OK, done venting, I'm gonna try and get some sleep!! Aaron just rented Knowing, that weird Nicholas Cage movie. Looks good! Think I'll grab a soad and join him!!
Chelle }}i{{
I asked to be put out, but he said to try this stuff (I forgot what it's called, he said it's like Valium). It made me relaxed, although I did feel the whole thing. At one point, I yelped and started to cry. He asked, "Does it burn?" I said yes. He said, "That's a good thing." yeah, right! The old way, used to do 8-10 injections. He did it a different way, I only had two puncter sights. It looked like he had a bendy type needle, and just went up one side and deposited at each location. It hurt pretty good when he pulled it out fast. I guess that's the band-aid theory. Do it fast, not slow!
I just finished filling out most of our home loan papers. I just have a few questions, and e-mailed her tonight. But it looks like it's going to be good! There are a lot of foreclosed homes in the area of our ward. We love it out here in Sparks. It's a nice quite neighborhood. No one bugs you. We only talk to our actual neighbor. They're great. We sit sometimes outside in my camping chairs and chat while our kids play out front. We're gonna miss them!
I was supposed to scan my W2's and send them to the college, but for some reason, my scanners not wanting to co-operate. So, I'm gonna have to head out there tomorrow so we can finish up with the financial aid paper work. It looks promising! :-)
I'm sick of my landlord! First, he moved to Idaho and changed his phone # and address without letting us know. Sounds fishy, right? Yeah, I thought so too. Then, our hot water heater's been on the fritz, and finally quite on Friday night. I called Jim, he conveniently had his phone off for the 4th of July weekend. And being emergencies on a holiday weekend cost an arm and a leg, we waited. he FINALLY called me on Monday. He gave his brother my number and said he'd call. Well, I talked to the bro today....he can't get here until Thursday, b/c he works in Carson. i told him not good enough. He said he'd swing by after work, probably 5:30-6 ish. I went to sleep, as i was very tired after my procedure. Woke up, no phone call, no brother.
So, I'm pissed. I just wrote him a "stern" e-mail saying this ain't cool, told him I'm calling someone to come and fix it and he'd better have a credit card or billing address they can send the bill. We'll see what happens.
It's a two edge sword with this kind of landlord. He never bugs you, or pops by, doesn't care if we paint the house whatever color we want....but when we really need him, he's not there. It's like pulling teeth. ugh!
OK, done venting, I'm gonna try and get some sleep!! Aaron just rented Knowing, that weird Nicholas Cage movie. Looks good! Think I'll grab a soad and join him!!
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Ah...Bubble Wrap...
So, I'm logging on to the web to check my bank statement out. And I have on my homepage a cartoon of the day thing. Well, it was Ziggy, and this just made me giggle! I LOVE bubble wrap! It's such a stress reliever!
So, Thank you Mr Ziggy creator!!! I'm about to have my procedure done, where they knock me out, and shove a whole bunch of needles in my spine in my low back. Fun stuff!!
This "relieved my stress" a little right now.
And my friend's about to pick me up! Here I go!
Chelle }}i{{
Monday, July 6, 2009
Music and lyrics and College, Oh My!!
Well, I finally mapped out the melody live I've had for Contradiction. I think it's spot on! Now, I just need to tweak and put some piano chords into the mix!! It is in the key of D Major, with some accidentals and a couple of borrowed V/V Chords. And if you got that last sentence, you are indeed a music nerd. :-) "what language do you speak?" "Music"....
Ah, I digress. I did head on up to TMCC, the community college here. They finally got my DARs report finished. And I just turned in the remainder of my FAFSA stuff. I also spoke to a counselor. She said I've only 13 credits left on my AA, and about 30 left on my AA of Music. But she wants me to do some research on the courses I need to take, b/c it looks like I've taken plenty of music classes. Some though, where Jr and Sr music classes, so they won't except them.
So, they're not accepting them, b/c what? The classes are too smart for the college? Am I smarter than the music their teaching? I got a little ego boost that instantly deflated when she said, "We're a Jr. College, we only accept Freshman/Sophomore credits."
"THhhpppppttt!" said Xander, as he stuck out his tongue at the woman.....yes son, my thoughts exactly....(this last part was mere fun, Xander did NOT stick out his tongue, but insited on interrupting the meeting time and again by asking for more paper to scribble on. He was actually quite enthralled with the woman and thought her "pretty"....thanks for changing teams there bud. I thought you were on my side!!!)
So, school starts in Aug. Hopefully I'll have all my ducks in a row!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Ah, I digress. I did head on up to TMCC, the community college here. They finally got my DARs report finished. And I just turned in the remainder of my FAFSA stuff. I also spoke to a counselor. She said I've only 13 credits left on my AA, and about 30 left on my AA of Music. But she wants me to do some research on the courses I need to take, b/c it looks like I've taken plenty of music classes. Some though, where Jr and Sr music classes, so they won't except them.
So, they're not accepting them, b/c what? The classes are too smart for the college? Am I smarter than the music their teaching? I got a little ego boost that instantly deflated when she said, "We're a Jr. College, we only accept Freshman/Sophomore credits."
"THhhpppppttt!" said Xander, as he stuck out his tongue at the woman.....yes son, my thoughts exactly....(this last part was mere fun, Xander did NOT stick out his tongue, but insited on interrupting the meeting time and again by asking for more paper to scribble on. He was actually quite enthralled with the woman and thought her "pretty"....thanks for changing teams there bud. I thought you were on my side!!!)
So, school starts in Aug. Hopefully I'll have all my ducks in a row!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Musings...eh? Happy Candia Day!!
I'm in a musical mood. I have my keyboard out and everything! I have some really good song lyrics...it's just time to make them into full blow songs!!!
Here goes nothing!!! Well, after a nap first!!
We went swimming at a friends' neighborhood pool today, then back to her place for some home-made mack and cheese. Good heavens! It was soooo rich and sooooo yummy! But it's one of those, "can only eat once in a while" dishes. Just too much good stuff!!!
So, now I'm tired and full! Oh!! Xander did sooo good today swimming!! He just had those little wing floaters! He had goggles on too! He was needing a little help at first, but soon he got really confident and was swimming on his own!!
Nap here I come! Oh! Happy Canada Day, eh? All you crazy canooks!! Yes, Jan, that was for you, eh? lol!! :-P
Chelle }}i{{
Here goes nothing!!! Well, after a nap first!!
We went swimming at a friends' neighborhood pool today, then back to her place for some home-made mack and cheese. Good heavens! It was soooo rich and sooooo yummy! But it's one of those, "can only eat once in a while" dishes. Just too much good stuff!!!
So, now I'm tired and full! Oh!! Xander did sooo good today swimming!! He just had those little wing floaters! He had goggles on too! He was needing a little help at first, but soon he got really confident and was swimming on his own!!
Nap here I come! Oh! Happy Canada Day, eh? All you crazy canooks!! Yes, Jan, that was for you, eh? lol!! :-P
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
And Then Buffy Staked Edward....
Hehehehehe, since I love Buffy more than I'll ever love Twilight...I HAD to post this!!! It makes me giggled everytime....I hope they make a sticker soon!!!! So putting it on my new car!!!
Monday, June 29, 2009
My Wrecked Car Photos
This is the car that hit me. The David to my Goliath. This is the driver's side, as you can see, I couldn't open my door, had to crawl through the passenger side.
Back left and back right sides. I have to order another "Coexist" religious sticker. I love that sticker!!! Plus, all my other funny ones I need to find again!!
Plus the one that took me a hour to hunt through all the stickers in a eclectic shop in Nevada City...good luck getting that one again! It said "Stay Tuned" with music notes around it. :-)
Plus the one that took me a hour to hunt through all the stickers in a eclectic shop in Nevada City...good luck getting that one again! It said "Stay Tuned" with music notes around it. :-)And this is the side view of the driver's side. I'm so glad I was able to get out somewhere!!!
Xander Caught His First Fish!!!
Doesn't he just look so proud! He was soooo excited when he caught it! He even helped me clean it!!
Aaron Found a Job!!
So, Aaron found a job! Yea!! He will be taking care of his mentally degrading Grandma. Making sure she takes her meds, making sure this idiot that keeps siphoning money out of her doesn't come over. Things like that.
It's part time, but Aaron's really happy about it. He loves his Gma alot! She's truly a neat woman and I've had such a pleasure of knowing her!!! She's funny and sarcastic...just like me! :-)
Aaron did get a job offer at Walmart, but he would have to leave UPS. He can't leave UPS until after 8/4 when my boobie reduction is done! Then he's "free". I heard a friend call UPS the "Golden Handcuffs". B/c it sucks to work there after a while, but most people stay b/c the benefits are so damn good. He's right!
I also got hit-on by a former co-worker last night. He had been drinking and needed a room. He used to work security there. Being in the front desk, we work with security alot. I know most of the guys, and usually give them hugs. They're all kinda like my big brothers. :-)
Well, he knew I had a son, and I said, "hey, Xander caught his first fish!" he got all excited. He then said, "Wait a minute, you have a ring on?!" I said yes. He asked if I was married. I said yes, 6 years (in a month! lol) He got sad and said, "Well that really sucks!" I looked at him and said, "No, I don't think so." He said, "well, for me. Cause you're so nice....this always happens."
He left and I had to laugh, but I felt good about myself. Sometimes you need a little ego boost to say, "Yup, not just my hubby thinks I'm hot!"
Chelle }}i{{
It's part time, but Aaron's really happy about it. He loves his Gma alot! She's truly a neat woman and I've had such a pleasure of knowing her!!! She's funny and sarcastic...just like me! :-)
Aaron did get a job offer at Walmart, but he would have to leave UPS. He can't leave UPS until after 8/4 when my boobie reduction is done! Then he's "free". I heard a friend call UPS the "Golden Handcuffs". B/c it sucks to work there after a while, but most people stay b/c the benefits are so damn good. He's right!
I also got hit-on by a former co-worker last night. He had been drinking and needed a room. He used to work security there. Being in the front desk, we work with security alot. I know most of the guys, and usually give them hugs. They're all kinda like my big brothers. :-)
Well, he knew I had a son, and I said, "hey, Xander caught his first fish!" he got all excited. He then said, "Wait a minute, you have a ring on?!" I said yes. He asked if I was married. I said yes, 6 years (in a month! lol) He got sad and said, "Well that really sucks!" I looked at him and said, "No, I don't think so." He said, "well, for me. Cause you're so nice....this always happens."
He left and I had to laugh, but I felt good about myself. Sometimes you need a little ego boost to say, "Yup, not just my hubby thinks I'm hot!"
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Good News!!
I'm soooo excited!!! On Aug 4th, I will be having my breast reduction surgery! Woohoo!!! The Dr is VERY confident it will help with my back and neck! I think so too!!!
I will post before and after pics (with a shirt on!! lol) I'm going from a GG (stands for Goodness Gracious!! lol) To a D (Stands for Delightfully perfect...hehehe)
It's been slow going on getting better. I'm a little miffed at my Attorney, as I sent over the document OVER a WEEK AGO and it's still hadn't been signed. It was a Lien so I could go to Physical Therapy. I haven't been since the accident and really need it!!
Anyhoo, we're going to the Rodeo Fairgrounds tonight and then off to see Transformers 2!!! Xander is SOOOOOO excited!!!
I hope to write more soon, when I back to being better, I'm planning to re-start my 101 goals. :-)
Love,
Chelle }}i{{
I will post before and after pics (with a shirt on!! lol) I'm going from a GG (stands for Goodness Gracious!! lol) To a D (Stands for Delightfully perfect...hehehe)
It's been slow going on getting better. I'm a little miffed at my Attorney, as I sent over the document OVER a WEEK AGO and it's still hadn't been signed. It was a Lien so I could go to Physical Therapy. I haven't been since the accident and really need it!!
Anyhoo, we're going to the Rodeo Fairgrounds tonight and then off to see Transformers 2!!! Xander is SOOOOOO excited!!!
I hope to write more soon, when I back to being better, I'm planning to re-start my 101 goals. :-)
Love,
Chelle }}i{{
Thursday, June 11, 2009
It's Been a While...
Sorry, it's been a while, I can't seem to find my grove back...
And now, Aaron told me this morning, he got fired from FedEx. they told him it's because he works for UPS too. Which, we knew this might happen, being their rival companies....but it still comes as a surprise.
So, Aaron spent all day sending his resume to everyone. He's applied to just about everywhere.....now we wait...
It just sucks, we can never seem to catch a break, everytime we get some money saved up or try to go on vacation, etc, something pops up and we can't.
Anyhoo, time for bed! I haven't slept well in a few days, and I'm finally tired!!! Woohoo!
Chelle }}i{{
And now, Aaron told me this morning, he got fired from FedEx. they told him it's because he works for UPS too. Which, we knew this might happen, being their rival companies....but it still comes as a surprise.
So, Aaron spent all day sending his resume to everyone. He's applied to just about everywhere.....now we wait...
It just sucks, we can never seem to catch a break, everytime we get some money saved up or try to go on vacation, etc, something pops up and we can't.
Anyhoo, time for bed! I haven't slept well in a few days, and I'm finally tired!!! Woohoo!
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Starting to Get Back
Ugh! Starting to get back in the swing of things!! I'm walking a little better today, although standing still and sitting still are still throwing me pretty bad.
It was Memorial Day today. Thanks to all those who have given their time, energy, loved ones and lives to this great land.
We went car shopping today and kept getting rejected by stupid dealers time and time again. It wasn't that we had bad credit, because we don't...it's because we weren't buying a car today. We are still waiting to see the majority of the loan paid off. I hate being treated like nothing. It's stupid. And it seems almost every car dealership I've ever gone to has been like that....except Toyota/Scion in Reno. We bought from a guy named Travis, about the same age as us, and he has always been awesome, courteous and flat out honest, something you don't really find in a car salesman.
We've told him straight up before what we can afford. He has always told us yes, or no...not "Come on in, we'll see if we can." only to try to sell you something else that you don't want.
So, after feeling a little frustrated, we went and saw him. Told him what's going on. Immediately he is running his brain trying to think of ways we can make this work, being the insurance company's really screwing us over. We eve talked about trading in Aaron's car for two used ones and seeing if that could keep us in our price range. He said he'd try to work on it and get back to us.
We were on our way to another city when we had the idea of "hey, let's try and re-finace the scion...lower the price, and then allowing extra room for my car"...we didn't have the toyota finance number, so we called Travis to get it. He didn't answer, but we left a message. Turns out, they were closed for the holiday.
But, about 7 tonight, he calls and talks to Aaron for about a half hour explaining, that our loan is actually less than the wholesale on out scion, and that we can actually get equity out of it and put it towards paying off the jeep. And in doing this, it will also lower our rates on the scion!
We got so giddy! Something is actually turning out okay on this! :-)
I'm gonna try and go talk to him tomorrow to get more details and see what we can do! :-)
As for now, I'm off to bed!!
Chelle }}i{{
It was Memorial Day today. Thanks to all those who have given their time, energy, loved ones and lives to this great land.
We went car shopping today and kept getting rejected by stupid dealers time and time again. It wasn't that we had bad credit, because we don't...it's because we weren't buying a car today. We are still waiting to see the majority of the loan paid off. I hate being treated like nothing. It's stupid. And it seems almost every car dealership I've ever gone to has been like that....except Toyota/Scion in Reno. We bought from a guy named Travis, about the same age as us, and he has always been awesome, courteous and flat out honest, something you don't really find in a car salesman.
We've told him straight up before what we can afford. He has always told us yes, or no...not "Come on in, we'll see if we can." only to try to sell you something else that you don't want.
So, after feeling a little frustrated, we went and saw him. Told him what's going on. Immediately he is running his brain trying to think of ways we can make this work, being the insurance company's really screwing us over. We eve talked about trading in Aaron's car for two used ones and seeing if that could keep us in our price range. He said he'd try to work on it and get back to us.
We were on our way to another city when we had the idea of "hey, let's try and re-finace the scion...lower the price, and then allowing extra room for my car"...we didn't have the toyota finance number, so we called Travis to get it. He didn't answer, but we left a message. Turns out, they were closed for the holiday.
But, about 7 tonight, he calls and talks to Aaron for about a half hour explaining, that our loan is actually less than the wholesale on out scion, and that we can actually get equity out of it and put it towards paying off the jeep. And in doing this, it will also lower our rates on the scion!
We got so giddy! Something is actually turning out okay on this! :-)
I'm gonna try and go talk to him tomorrow to get more details and see what we can do! :-)
As for now, I'm off to bed!!
Chelle }}i{{
Monday, May 25, 2009
Update on the Wreck
Wow, what a week it had been! It's sucked, really sucked. I am walking like an 80 year-old woman, I squirm like Xander does in a chair, b/c I can't sit still for long.
I'm not working much, I'm trying, but it just hurts to stand for long periods, and that's what I do.
I have amazing friends and family that have giving me such great love and support.
I have been reading in Job alot, and that's been making me feel better. Plus, you know Xander makes my day. He's been such a little trouper in all of this!
Well, off to bed and to find a car tomorrow! Wish me luck!!!
Thanks for everything!!
Chelle }}i{{
I'm not working much, I'm trying, but it just hurts to stand for long periods, and that's what I do.
I have amazing friends and family that have giving me such great love and support.
I have been reading in Job alot, and that's been making me feel better. Plus, you know Xander makes my day. He's been such a little trouper in all of this!
Well, off to bed and to find a car tomorrow! Wish me luck!!!
Thanks for everything!!
Chelle }}i{{
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Wrecked...My Car Was Totalled...With Me Still Inside!!!
I WAS having a great day... until I was heading to work. I got rear-ended. It was an accident, through and through, everyone suddenly braked. I just got the shit end of the stick. (thankfully Xander was NOT in the car!!!)
Anyhoo, my Jeep Cherokee is totalled. I couldn't open the driver's side, I had to crawl through the passenger's side.
Thankfully a dear friend saw my car and pulled over. She was with me in the Ambulance and with me until Hubby could get there. She's was so awesome! That's a true friend right there! Drops everything to help out a friend in need!!!!
My neck and back started hurting, and they put me in a brace and sent me to the ambulance!
I was at the ER for a while. Good news, nothing broken! So, I know I'm going to hurt like hell tomorrow! Yeah! He gave me some good drugs, so hopefully I'll start feeling better soon.
Anyhoo, I'm okay, I hurt, I could use some more love this way!!!
And the meds are starting to kick in.............zzzzzzzz
Love,
Chelle
Anyhoo, my Jeep Cherokee is totalled. I couldn't open the driver's side, I had to crawl through the passenger's side.
Thankfully a dear friend saw my car and pulled over. She was with me in the Ambulance and with me until Hubby could get there. She's was so awesome! That's a true friend right there! Drops everything to help out a friend in need!!!!
My neck and back started hurting, and they put me in a brace and sent me to the ambulance!
I was at the ER for a while. Good news, nothing broken! So, I know I'm going to hurt like hell tomorrow! Yeah! He gave me some good drugs, so hopefully I'll start feeling better soon.
Anyhoo, I'm okay, I hurt, I could use some more love this way!!!
And the meds are starting to kick in.............zzzzzzzz
Love,
Chelle
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Having A Bad Day
I'm having a REALLY bad day.... :-(
I hurt, I'm tired, and I'm scared....not a fun combo.....
And this is going to be a long rant, but I need to do it, so, please bear with me!
Well, it started a while ago, Hubby kept pushing (he didn't mean to) about having another kid. While I would LOVE to have another, I have so many scary thoughts and notions.
I had a great pregnancy until the 7th month, on Aug 2nd, 2005 (our second Anni, which makes even more memorable) We were coming back from Monterey, when I man rear-ended us. Hubby was fine, he was reclined and asleep...It was a "Low impact" being I was stopped and he was maybe going 30. Well, he was opening a bag of chips and didn't see that it was red. *Bam!*
And I've been pretty much miserable ever since. I try to stay upbeat and don't let the pain get to me, but sometimes, you just have to cry, you can't hold it in any longer!
My pain level used to be a 10 (10 being unbearable pain) at birth to now a constant 5. It's been 3 1/2 years of pills, injections, acupuncture, physical therapy, chiropractics, yoga, and I still hurt! Some days I can't pick up my son, and it just kills me when he looks at me and says before giving me a hug, "Mommy, how's your back? Is it hurting?" And then he'll hug me and lightly rub my shoulder.
We're also not too stable financially. We have a couple hundred in savings, but DH works 2 part-time jobs, and is going to school. I'm working a full time job nights, because we can't afford a babysitter. So, I don't seem my hubby, and b/c of my night hours, I tend to be crabby with Xander...I HATE IT!!! Pretty much, we need all paychecks to survive right now.
My fears about being preggers? And I did tell these fears to Hubby...but I'm still trying to figure out his reaction to my not being ready..
-I will hurt again the same way I did when I first got hit. That is my worst fear of all. I don't think I can emotionally handle that right now
-We don't have enough time to spend with the one we already have, why compound it?!
-What if I am sent to bed b/c I'm preggers? I have a history of High Blood Pressure (Yoga's the thing that actually took me off my meds for that!!). I will not be able to take ANY meds while preggers....There are days I can't move until my pain pills have kicked in. I will literally lay in bed Xander cuddle next to me watching a movie waiting to be able to feel good enough to move.
-Money-we're scraping by as is....the economy is such that no one's job is 100% secure! And to add diapers and formula (can't breast feed) on top is just crazy!!!!
-If I have to work, who's going to watch the two of them? My Mom-in-law watches my son for a few hours Wed, Thurs, and Fri until hubby gets home...She's dealing with an ADHD 9 year old, working part time at the elementary school, a twice over breast cancer survivor, oh, yeah, and she's dealing with her mom having Alzheimer's. Can I really ask her to add to her burden? I know she'd say yes....but, I don't know.
I hurt, I'm tired, and I'm scared....not a fun combo.....
And this is going to be a long rant, but I need to do it, so, please bear with me!
Well, it started a while ago, Hubby kept pushing (he didn't mean to) about having another kid. While I would LOVE to have another, I have so many scary thoughts and notions.
I had a great pregnancy until the 7th month, on Aug 2nd, 2005 (our second Anni, which makes even more memorable) We were coming back from Monterey, when I man rear-ended us. Hubby was fine, he was reclined and asleep...It was a "Low impact" being I was stopped and he was maybe going 30. Well, he was opening a bag of chips and didn't see that it was red. *Bam!*
And I've been pretty much miserable ever since. I try to stay upbeat and don't let the pain get to me, but sometimes, you just have to cry, you can't hold it in any longer!
My pain level used to be a 10 (10 being unbearable pain) at birth to now a constant 5. It's been 3 1/2 years of pills, injections, acupuncture, physical therapy, chiropractics, yoga, and I still hurt! Some days I can't pick up my son, and it just kills me when he looks at me and says before giving me a hug, "Mommy, how's your back? Is it hurting?" And then he'll hug me and lightly rub my shoulder.
We're also not too stable financially. We have a couple hundred in savings, but DH works 2 part-time jobs, and is going to school. I'm working a full time job nights, because we can't afford a babysitter. So, I don't seem my hubby, and b/c of my night hours, I tend to be crabby with Xander...I HATE IT!!! Pretty much, we need all paychecks to survive right now.
My fears about being preggers? And I did tell these fears to Hubby...but I'm still trying to figure out his reaction to my not being ready..
-I will hurt again the same way I did when I first got hit. That is my worst fear of all. I don't think I can emotionally handle that right now
-We don't have enough time to spend with the one we already have, why compound it?!
-What if I am sent to bed b/c I'm preggers? I have a history of High Blood Pressure (Yoga's the thing that actually took me off my meds for that!!). I will not be able to take ANY meds while preggers....There are days I can't move until my pain pills have kicked in. I will literally lay in bed Xander cuddle next to me watching a movie waiting to be able to feel good enough to move.
-Money-we're scraping by as is....the economy is such that no one's job is 100% secure! And to add diapers and formula (can't breast feed) on top is just crazy!!!!
-If I have to work, who's going to watch the two of them? My Mom-in-law watches my son for a few hours Wed, Thurs, and Fri until hubby gets home...She's dealing with an ADHD 9 year old, working part time at the elementary school, a twice over breast cancer survivor, oh, yeah, and she's dealing with her mom having Alzheimer's. Can I really ask her to add to her burden? I know she'd say yes....but, I don't know.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Star Trek!
I have been anticipating this movie for a long time!!! I am a huge Trek fan, but not in the "Let's dress up and go to a convention and let's learn a language that doesn't exist." type of fan. Just I've seen all the original movies and LOVED Star Trek Next Generation!!!!
Might I say: Excellent!!!! I Loved it! Great movie!!
We all went to go see it and it didn't seem like it was a long movie at all.
I'm still getting used to my hours. One of these days! :-)
Aaron and xander did the annual Father-Son camp out with our church. They went to a place called dog valley. They had a great time! Grandpa went with them too. I got home from work and didn't know what to do with myself! lol
Anyways, have to get up early tomorrow! Dr. Appt!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Might I say: Excellent!!!! I Loved it! Great movie!!
We all went to go see it and it didn't seem like it was a long movie at all.
I'm still getting used to my hours. One of these days! :-)
Aaron and xander did the annual Father-Son camp out with our church. They went to a place called dog valley. They had a great time! Grandpa went with them too. I got home from work and didn't know what to do with myself! lol
Anyways, have to get up early tomorrow! Dr. Appt!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Don't Judge a Book By It's Cover.....Or a Person!!!
So, I work in a hotel, at the front desk. It is a large hotel, with nearly 2,000 rooms. We have travelers from all over the world come and visit! It's a truly neat experience.
We had a group of Muslims come in from Saudi Arabia today. I was so jazzed when I found out, as my folks used to live in Saudi.
Later that evening, sure enough, the group came in. The women were dressed beautifully! About half had their faces fully covered, the rest wore dressings on their head and shoulders.
At lunch time, a fellow co-worker, tells me, "Oh, I'm so scared to be working here tonight."
When I asked why, she said, "Because all these Indians in here."
"They're not from India, they're Muslim and from Saudi Arabia." I state, getting irritated knowing where it's about to lead....
"Well, they all look like terrorist. They probably are. I'm scared." She didn't look scared, but the way she looked was very condescending
The ironic thing about it? My co-workers from another country! Some of her ways are "weird" to me, but that's her, and that's her culture. Still respect her.
I tried to correct her on her errors. Explaining that in the Islamic faith, it is a SIN to kill. I explained that those who claim to be Muslim and then destroy life, are not Muslim, they are radicals. I explained that it is a very peaceful religion and they actually believe in some of the same prophets as Christians do.
In one ear and out the other. *sigh*
Sometimes it's one step forward and 15 steps back, you know?
*Anyways*
Had to vent!!!
We had a group of Muslims come in from Saudi Arabia today. I was so jazzed when I found out, as my folks used to live in Saudi.
Later that evening, sure enough, the group came in. The women were dressed beautifully! About half had their faces fully covered, the rest wore dressings on their head and shoulders.
At lunch time, a fellow co-worker, tells me, "Oh, I'm so scared to be working here tonight."
When I asked why, she said, "Because all these Indians in here."
"They're not from India, they're Muslim and from Saudi Arabia." I state, getting irritated knowing where it's about to lead....
"Well, they all look like terrorist. They probably are. I'm scared." She didn't look scared, but the way she looked was very condescending
The ironic thing about it? My co-workers from another country! Some of her ways are "weird" to me, but that's her, and that's her culture. Still respect her.
I tried to correct her on her errors. Explaining that in the Islamic faith, it is a SIN to kill. I explained that those who claim to be Muslim and then destroy life, are not Muslim, they are radicals. I explained that it is a very peaceful religion and they actually believe in some of the same prophets as Christians do.
In one ear and out the other. *sigh*
Sometimes it's one step forward and 15 steps back, you know?
*Anyways*
Had to vent!!!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Haven't Been On For a While!
Sorry (mainly to myself) that I haven't been on for a while! Things are pretty hectic and I've started a new shift. It's really throwing me off!!! Two hours difference can be huge!
We played softball, and I tweaked my shoulder (go figure). It sucks not being able to do the same things you're use to doing!!
Aaron and I are talking about being Foster parents or even adopting...We want more kids, but I just hurt all the time. I don't want to hurt anymore!!
So, we're going to the Temple on Tuesday and see what happens!!
Chelle }}i{{
We played softball, and I tweaked my shoulder (go figure). It sucks not being able to do the same things you're use to doing!!
Aaron and I are talking about being Foster parents or even adopting...We want more kids, but I just hurt all the time. I don't want to hurt anymore!!
So, we're going to the Temple on Tuesday and see what happens!!
Chelle }}i{{
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Ah, whatever day it is!! I started my new shift!!
So, I started my new shift today. I'm working 4-12 midnight. I love it! It's a little busier, but it makes the day go by a lot faster!
Plus, in a couple of weeks, I should be all systems go and getting up earlier and STAYING UP!!! :-)
Which means, more time with Xander! Yeah!
Plus, I like the fact that I don't have to rush home just so Aaron can go to work.
Anyhoo, off to bed, I have softball in the morning!!! Two games!!
Chelle }}i{{
Plus, in a couple of weeks, I should be all systems go and getting up earlier and STAYING UP!!! :-)
Which means, more time with Xander! Yeah!
Plus, I like the fact that I don't have to rush home just so Aaron can go to work.
Anyhoo, off to bed, I have softball in the morning!!! Two games!!
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Day 92 & 93 Weird Dream....or Was It?!
Okay, so last, I get home, I'm tired and I go to bed. I don't know if it was a dream or not, but it sure made me feel just...scared
So, I saw this dark shadow/mist...I don't really know what to call it. It hit me, like went inside me. I did a full body jerk, and said "GET OUT!!!" in my head. "It" then was just hovering over me, pressing down on me. I could barely breathe and tried to move....but I couldn't! I was trapped!!! I couldn't speak or move!!! I knew it was bad and kept yelling, "GET OUT!!!" over and over in my head. Finally, it release, hit me one more time, I did another full body jerk and was able to move. I was sweating and just shaking. I almost woke up Aaron, that's how bad it scared me.
So, what do you think? I don't watch scary movies or anything...dream or not? I'm hoping it's a dream as it just scared the hell out of me.
So, I saw this dark shadow/mist...I don't really know what to call it. It hit me, like went inside me. I did a full body jerk, and said "GET OUT!!!" in my head. "It" then was just hovering over me, pressing down on me. I could barely breathe and tried to move....but I couldn't! I was trapped!!! I couldn't speak or move!!! I knew it was bad and kept yelling, "GET OUT!!!" over and over in my head. Finally, it release, hit me one more time, I did another full body jerk and was able to move. I was sweating and just shaking. I almost woke up Aaron, that's how bad it scared me.
So, what do you think? I don't watch scary movies or anything...dream or not? I'm hoping it's a dream as it just scared the hell out of me.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Day 90
Well, got some new meds to try from the dr. She gave me a long acting muscle relaxant and they want to do some new injections on me...maybe they'll work!
I'm just hoping to hear back soon on my breast reduction!!! Hopefully that will go through!!!
I'm waiting to get approval for my vacation in august, I can't do any planning until then for our trip! Darn it!!
Anyhoo, that's it for now! I'm starting to feel a little sleepy!
Chelle }}i{{
I'm just hoping to hear back soon on my breast reduction!!! Hopefully that will go through!!!
I'm waiting to get approval for my vacation in august, I can't do any planning until then for our trip! Darn it!!
Anyhoo, that's it for now! I'm starting to feel a little sleepy!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Day 90...nothing much
Nothing much today. I was so tired I didn't wake up until late, even though I had a dentist appointment...lol
So, I called re-scheduled, and faxed some stuff for Aaron's school. Xander and I then went to the river. It was a beautiful day!!!!
Then, we went home, hung out for a few and then I went to softball practice....my shoulder's sore...going to regret it in the morning, good thing I have my injections tomorrow!!! Woohoo!!!
I'm excited and nervous, I need to talk to my dr so I can live life!!! My meds aren't working, so we'll see what she says!!!
Chelle }}i{{
So, I called re-scheduled, and faxed some stuff for Aaron's school. Xander and I then went to the river. It was a beautiful day!!!!
Then, we went home, hung out for a few and then I went to softball practice....my shoulder's sore...going to regret it in the morning, good thing I have my injections tomorrow!!! Woohoo!!!
I'm excited and nervous, I need to talk to my dr so I can live life!!! My meds aren't working, so we'll see what she says!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Day 80-something....The Pains of Being a Mom
So, I went to pick up some prescriptions today, an allergy med for Xander and 3 for me, one being my muscle relaxants that I'm out of....
Well, the price was a LOT!!! A couple of them, I could wait on, but the muscle relaxant and Xander's couldn't really wait.
Well, mine was still pretty pricey and so was his...and being Costco doesn't except credit cards except American Express....I had to choose.
So, of course, I chose Xander's....poor guy! He just has soooo much stuffiness!!!! And I have so much stiffness!lol
anyhoo, off to bed!
Chelle }}i{{
Well, the price was a LOT!!! A couple of them, I could wait on, but the muscle relaxant and Xander's couldn't really wait.
Well, mine was still pretty pricey and so was his...and being Costco doesn't except credit cards except American Express....I had to choose.
So, of course, I chose Xander's....poor guy! He just has soooo much stuffiness!!!! And I have so much stiffness!lol
anyhoo, off to bed!
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Day 87 and 88...I think Xander had a seizure!
So, I got home from doing some visiting teach this afternoon, and I was really tired. So we grabbed a snack and headed for bed.
I was dozing while he was still watching a little t.v. I turned it off and he cuddled up and went to sleep. I continued to dose for a little bit, but couldn't go back to sleep....something was bugging me and I wasn't tired.
So, I'm just watching t.v. hoping to fall asleep....I look over at Xander and he was laying peacefully on his side. He then suddenly curled in the fetal position and started to shake. He shook for a good 2-3 seconds (maybe a little longer, it seemed like forever!) I was about to grab the phone when he stopped, woke and sleepily said, "I have to potty." He went potty and then came back and watched a little t.v. with me.
He didn't skip a beat, like nothing happened. He went on to play outside and everything!!!
Aaron thinks I'm over-reacting, but I want to call the Dr. in the morning and see what they say, they'll probably want to see him. Aaron says wait for the next one....if there is one. But the problem being, it was in his sleep...what if this wasn't the first time???!!!
Anyhoo, that was my day! Damn it, and I'm out of easy cheese!!! lol
Love
Chelle }}i{{
I was dozing while he was still watching a little t.v. I turned it off and he cuddled up and went to sleep. I continued to dose for a little bit, but couldn't go back to sleep....something was bugging me and I wasn't tired.
So, I'm just watching t.v. hoping to fall asleep....I look over at Xander and he was laying peacefully on his side. He then suddenly curled in the fetal position and started to shake. He shook for a good 2-3 seconds (maybe a little longer, it seemed like forever!) I was about to grab the phone when he stopped, woke and sleepily said, "I have to potty." He went potty and then came back and watched a little t.v. with me.
He didn't skip a beat, like nothing happened. He went on to play outside and everything!!!
Aaron thinks I'm over-reacting, but I want to call the Dr. in the morning and see what they say, they'll probably want to see him. Aaron says wait for the next one....if there is one. But the problem being, it was in his sleep...what if this wasn't the first time???!!!
Anyhoo, that was my day! Damn it, and I'm out of easy cheese!!! lol
Love
Chelle }}i{{
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Day 85 First Guitar Performance!!!
So, I sung and played my guitar at the church talent show! It was really fun!!!
I did the song Bubbly it worked out really well!!
Alright, off to bed!!
Chelle }}i{{
I did the song Bubbly it worked out really well!!
Alright, off to bed!!
Chelle }}i{{
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Day 84 and 85....Overtime and Aftermath!
I've worked over time today, a whole 11 hours!! yuck! But, I need the money, what else to do??
I'm finally feeling better after softball.....I woke up yesterday and could barely move!!! I went home last night and took a bath and headed to bed!
That's it for now, I have softball practice again in the a.m. but I'm going to stretch first!!! lol
Chelle }}i{{
I'm finally feeling better after softball.....I woke up yesterday and could barely move!!! I went home last night and took a bath and headed to bed!
That's it for now, I have softball practice again in the a.m. but I'm going to stretch first!!! lol
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Day 83 Feeling Better!! :-)
So, I had my cry last night. Scared the hell outta Aaron. I think he thought I was checking out for good or something. Nope! Just having my moment. I told him that I have to put on a mask all the time for everyone to see. To have them see that I'm okay, even though I'm hurting all the time....And just every once in a while, I need that time to cry and say, No, everything is NOT okay. And then, I'm fine and better. I feel kinda cleansed. Does that make sense?
But, I had a good day, I went to Yoga. Had to go to the dentist and get a couple feelings....THAT was FUN!!! :-P I now have metal on metal and it's driving me nuts! I can only chew on my left side, so it's reduced me to soft things. I made banana pancakes for dinner.....YUM!!
I had softball practice tonight...that was awesome!!! I love playing softball! We have a few more practices and then it's game time!
I also went to my friends' house, we were practicing for sharing time on Sunday. I'm bringing my guitar! It's going to be soooo fun!!! The kids are performing at church on Saturday as well, and as luck would have it, I have it off!!! Yippiee!!!!! So, we're going to do something with the guitar too! It's going to be neat!
So all in all, great day!!!
Chelle }}i{{
But, I had a good day, I went to Yoga. Had to go to the dentist and get a couple feelings....THAT was FUN!!! :-P I now have metal on metal and it's driving me nuts! I can only chew on my left side, so it's reduced me to soft things. I made banana pancakes for dinner.....YUM!!
I had softball practice tonight...that was awesome!!! I love playing softball! We have a few more practices and then it's game time!
I also went to my friends' house, we were practicing for sharing time on Sunday. I'm bringing my guitar! It's going to be soooo fun!!! The kids are performing at church on Saturday as well, and as luck would have it, I have it off!!! Yippiee!!!!! So, we're going to do something with the guitar too! It's going to be neat!
So all in all, great day!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Day 82...Bad Night
As most of you know, I was in a car wreck about three years ago, and still hurt. I try to have a strong face all the time, but some days, I just can't do it anymore...Some days I just want to give up completely. But I know I can't.... Anyhoo, this is my favorite song when I'm in my cry-mope-hurt day.It's by Linkin Park and it's called Given Up. It fits me so well some days.
Waking in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemy
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the heck is
Wrong with me?
I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for hope somehow somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the heck is
Wrong with me?
God!
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my ******* misery!
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the heck is
Wrong with me?
Waking in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemy
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the heck is
Wrong with me?
I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for hope somehow somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the heck is
Wrong with me?
God!
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my ******* misery!
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the heck is
Wrong with me?
Day 81....Started My School Papers!!!
So, I picked up my UNR transcripts!! I went over to TMCC and filled out my Degree Audit Report (DARS) and am just waiting for my BYU-Idaho transcripts....turns out, with UNR, I had 28 credits!! So I have a total of 91 credits going in to TMCC. Hopefully I'll only need a few classes to graduate!!! Woohoo!
I ran into my friend at TMCC, she was visiting her hubby there on his break from work. So afterwards, we went and took the kids to the park and had a good time!
I went back home and gave Koda a bath outside as he threw up in his kennel last night. And I thought after we cleaned it up, and aired out the house, everything will be fine. So, we went to sleep with a stench in the house and windows open. Woke up, and it turned out Koda had rolled in it too or something...yuck! So, he smells sooooo much better now!! lol
Anyhoo, off to get my FASA paperwork in!!!
Chelle }}i{{
I ran into my friend at TMCC, she was visiting her hubby there on his break from work. So afterwards, we went and took the kids to the park and had a good time!
I went back home and gave Koda a bath outside as he threw up in his kennel last night. And I thought after we cleaned it up, and aired out the house, everything will be fine. So, we went to sleep with a stench in the house and windows open. Woke up, and it turned out Koda had rolled in it too or something...yuck! So, he smells sooooo much better now!! lol
Anyhoo, off to get my FASA paperwork in!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Monday, April 13, 2009
Day 80..Happy Easter!!!
Or so it would seem....
As most of you know, I have a bad neck/shoulder/back...etc. I get injections in my back monthly and also am on a slew of pain meds...I hate it....I hate it with a fiery passion....but I also know I'm not able to go without them, and that just sucks.
So, I've been on vicodine for a few years now...and it hasn't worked in a while...pretty much all it does is give a good enough buzz, that even though I'm hurting, I really don't care about it. I'm afraid to talk to my Dr. about it, because I'm afraid of being labeled a drug addict, even though I'm soooo not!
I was talking to a friend, who has the same kinda crap going on (her's is mainly migraines). And we're always talking about pain and pain management. She's been on a little heavier dosages, but then her Dr. put her on an extended pill....she LOVES it!!! She's not in pain AND she doesn't have that fuzzy/grogginess about her that I've seen before and have experienced. She told me I need to go to my dr and talk about this. She was in the same boat when her hubby said, "Why don't you tell your dr. If you don't, they can't fix you." And he was right.
So, I was talking to Aaron about it, telling him everything (something I stopped doing with my pain b/c he doesn't seem to understand) and I asked him what he thought. He said he didn't care, whatever would help me...and then added that he was sick of it...When I asked him what he meant by that, he was drawing a blank like he never said it.
He then went on to say that I'm yelling at Xander alot, he's noticed this week. I told him first of all, between the two of them, they were driving me absolutely nuts! I was going insane. The second thing was I've about had it some days with Xander. I start off in a happy mood with him, and then after a few time outs and not listening, it seems like the only thing he'll pay attention to is yelling. And I hate it....so that made things worse too.
Anyways, just a crappy day after church. *sigh* whatever. Stupid man...good thing I love him to death....
Chelle }}i{{
As most of you know, I have a bad neck/shoulder/back...etc. I get injections in my back monthly and also am on a slew of pain meds...I hate it....I hate it with a fiery passion....but I also know I'm not able to go without them, and that just sucks.
So, I've been on vicodine for a few years now...and it hasn't worked in a while...pretty much all it does is give a good enough buzz, that even though I'm hurting, I really don't care about it. I'm afraid to talk to my Dr. about it, because I'm afraid of being labeled a drug addict, even though I'm soooo not!
I was talking to a friend, who has the same kinda crap going on (her's is mainly migraines). And we're always talking about pain and pain management. She's been on a little heavier dosages, but then her Dr. put her on an extended pill....she LOVES it!!! She's not in pain AND she doesn't have that fuzzy/grogginess about her that I've seen before and have experienced. She told me I need to go to my dr and talk about this. She was in the same boat when her hubby said, "Why don't you tell your dr. If you don't, they can't fix you." And he was right.
So, I was talking to Aaron about it, telling him everything (something I stopped doing with my pain b/c he doesn't seem to understand) and I asked him what he thought. He said he didn't care, whatever would help me...and then added that he was sick of it...When I asked him what he meant by that, he was drawing a blank like he never said it.
He then went on to say that I'm yelling at Xander alot, he's noticed this week. I told him first of all, between the two of them, they were driving me absolutely nuts! I was going insane. The second thing was I've about had it some days with Xander. I start off in a happy mood with him, and then after a few time outs and not listening, it seems like the only thing he'll pay attention to is yelling. And I hate it....so that made things worse too.
Anyways, just a crappy day after church. *sigh* whatever. Stupid man...good thing I love him to death....
Chelle }}i{{
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Day 79....Pre-Easter Day
So, today was a nice, normal day....I prepped a turkey and dropped it off at the in-laws for tomorrow/ I had asked Aaron to pick up a DVD for Xander for Easter....meaning the bunny would give it to him in a basket....
Good day at work, busy, slow, pretty uneventful....
I get home and wake up Aaron to ask where the movie is so I can put it in the basket....he goes, "oh, it's by the TV, we already watched it.....WHAT?!!!!
So, I just finished rummaging through the garage for some re-gifting items he's forgotten about....
Thankfully, I was able to find a few things! Grrrr!!! It just kinda irritated me! *sigh* whatever! It's done, can't turn back the clock....lol
Happy Easter Everyone!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Good day at work, busy, slow, pretty uneventful....
I get home and wake up Aaron to ask where the movie is so I can put it in the basket....he goes, "oh, it's by the TV, we already watched it.....WHAT?!!!!
So, I just finished rummaging through the garage for some re-gifting items he's forgotten about....
Thankfully, I was able to find a few things! Grrrr!!! It just kinda irritated me! *sigh* whatever! It's done, can't turn back the clock....lol
Happy Easter Everyone!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Day 78....Going Bonkers!!!
So, I woke up, Xander got up REALLY early today...Aaron got home from Fed-ex, (on vacation from UPS) and was wide awake. So, I tired to get some sleep while heckle and jeckle were awake....yeah, that didn't work!
They had the t.v. blaring and Aaron kept poking Xander....so I kept hearing a "Buzzing" sound from Aaron and Xander with annoyed grunts and whines telling his daddy to stop.
I finally grabbed my pillow and slept on the couch.
Aaron's on vacation, and it's been like I have two three-year-olds in the house. Aaron starts all this crap, and Xander doesn't like it, and he whines. It's driving me freakin' nuts!!!
I hate to say it, but I'll be glad when Aaron goes back to work...he's said I was kinda grumpy from time to time this week....REALLY?! I'm freaking dealing with shit that's about to make me go postal or send a note saying "I'm off to my happy place, I'll see you in a few days."
AGH!!!!
Okay, I'm done, my vent is over.....until the next vacation! lol
Chelle }}i{{
They had the t.v. blaring and Aaron kept poking Xander....so I kept hearing a "Buzzing" sound from Aaron and Xander with annoyed grunts and whines telling his daddy to stop.
I finally grabbed my pillow and slept on the couch.
Aaron's on vacation, and it's been like I have two three-year-olds in the house. Aaron starts all this crap, and Xander doesn't like it, and he whines. It's driving me freakin' nuts!!!
I hate to say it, but I'll be glad when Aaron goes back to work...he's said I was kinda grumpy from time to time this week....REALLY?! I'm freaking dealing with shit that's about to make me go postal or send a note saying "I'm off to my happy place, I'll see you in a few days."
AGH!!!!
Okay, I'm done, my vent is over.....until the next vacation! lol
Chelle }}i{{
Friday, April 10, 2009
Day 77 Buying a House (maybe) and College Stuff
So, it's just another day here. Although Aaron and I were pretty lazy today...I did manage to get up to TMCC (Truckee Meadows Comm. College) to see about what I needed to get back there.
So, I pulled up my unofficial transcripts from BYU-I (Brigham Young University, Idaho), and I was right! I have 63 credits total!!! And that's not including the 1 1/2 years I spent at UNR (University of Nevada, Reno)!!!! I think add about 17 more credits and we're good! I think I might be really close to graduating!!! woohoo!!!!
Then afterwards, I swung by BofA, and they said I'd need 20% down for a house loan....screw that!!!!!
So, I went to see an old friend I haven't seen in a long time at a real estate place...She's no longer there, but I was able to get the help I needed!!
I'm calling the broker tomorrow to talk shop! Who knows?! We might be able to buy our house soon!!!! And it'd be cheaper too!!! Yea!!!
Chelle }}i{{
So, I pulled up my unofficial transcripts from BYU-I (Brigham Young University, Idaho), and I was right! I have 63 credits total!!! And that's not including the 1 1/2 years I spent at UNR (University of Nevada, Reno)!!!! I think add about 17 more credits and we're good! I think I might be really close to graduating!!! woohoo!!!!
Then afterwards, I swung by BofA, and they said I'd need 20% down for a house loan....screw that!!!!!
So, I went to see an old friend I haven't seen in a long time at a real estate place...She's no longer there, but I was able to get the help I needed!!
I'm calling the broker tomorrow to talk shop! Who knows?! We might be able to buy our house soon!!!! And it'd be cheaper too!!! Yea!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Day 75, Going Back to School
So, I think I'm going back to school. I tried the medical transcriptioning thing, and what I found, is that it doesn't have a due date...it's just, when you're done, you're done....
That doesn't help me. I need to have a due date on papers, etc, or I'll just put them off. I'm a full time mom and a full time employee for someone else. I find and HAVE a million and one things to do that need to be done and need it done now...
I want to be successful, I want to finish something I started....I need to.
Chelle }}i{{
That doesn't help me. I need to have a due date on papers, etc, or I'll just put them off. I'm a full time mom and a full time employee for someone else. I find and HAVE a million and one things to do that need to be done and need it done now...
I want to be successful, I want to finish something I started....I need to.
Chelle }}i{{
Day 74 Asthma Attack....
I had a horrible asthma attack at work. So bad I had to down two cups of coffee b/c my inhaler wasn't cutting it....
So, I'm home now. I'm still having asthma, and I'm a little wired...
I hate this...I did get a shot for my allergies today, so hopefully in a day or two I'll feel better. :-)
So, I'm home now. I'm still having asthma, and I'm a little wired...
I hate this...I did get a shot for my allergies today, so hopefully in a day or two I'll feel better. :-)
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Day 74...General Conference
I'm a little sad, I was soo tired today I didn't get to listen to all of conference. I kept falling asleep. I can't wait for the Ensign to come out!!!
And Aaron's giving me that look...better go!!
Chelle }}i{{
And Aaron's giving me that look...better go!!
Chelle }}i{{
Day 73...Ouch and Going Back to School
Having a really bad day today. Just hurting. I woke up and could barely move. Some drugs and a few yoga stretches later and I was feeling slightly better.
Fast and the Furious came out today...Aaron has been drooling for this movie. So we headed to the movies. I was okay during the movies.
Hurt at work too...and was able to get out a little early without feeling too bad about it. I did over 50 dollars in upsells tonight, so that covered my skipping out early.
Aaron and I were talking about school for me tonight. I think I might do it. Live on student loans for a little while...I don't think I could do school and a full time job again....that's not fun!!!! But at least I'll be able to do something else....We'll see.
Chelle }}i{{
Fast and the Furious came out today...Aaron has been drooling for this movie. So we headed to the movies. I was okay during the movies.
Hurt at work too...and was able to get out a little early without feeling too bad about it. I did over 50 dollars in upsells tonight, so that covered my skipping out early.
Aaron and I were talking about school for me tonight. I think I might do it. Live on student loans for a little while...I don't think I could do school and a full time job again....that's not fun!!!! But at least I'll be able to do something else....We'll see.
Chelle }}i{{
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Day 72...I had Gizmo Turn Into a Gremlin Today...
That would be my son. We were re-financing a loan of ours this morning to get a better percentage rate, and well, Xander was PERFECT!!! He was a darling little angel! I told him, b/c he was good, that we'd go to lunch, maybe get McD's or something.
He choose, McD's, of course! Well, it wasn't quite lunch time, we had to take Aaron home before work, drop the check to the Landlord, and get him some new clothes. So, we dropped Aaron off, picked up Xander's old clothes and headed out. We met with the Landlord, dropped the check off, had to run to the bank, and then to the clothing store.
At the bank and the clothing store is when all hell broke loose. He wanted to sit on the counter by me, I told him okay, as long as he didn't touch anything...first thing? he goes for the fingerprint thing at the bank...then kept wanting her calculator. I finally set him down, and he started crying. He stopped and gave him one more chance....
Then the clothing store, it's a used kids clothing and toys place. I had to wait in line to trade in his old clothes, (he had a three inch growth spurt over night!!!). As soon as he hit the door, he started running for the toys. I asked him to stop and come back, as the toys would be out of my sight....he didn't listen after two attempts to call him back, I went over, and dragged him back to the counter. I explained that maybe after we shop, he can go play, but until then, no touching.
Of course, there was touching!! Everything! All the clothes on his level were not the right size, and he would try and grab the hanger and all and show me, "I like this mommy!" only to pull it off the hanger. Now, it was cute the FIRST time, and put it back, explained, and went on. This kept happening, so I told him he couldn't play afterwards. He started to cry and yell. I told him if he didn't stop, he was going to loose McD's at this point. He dried right up.
Then we got to the counter where you could see all the toys hanging out...."MOMMY...mommy! Mommy! Mommy! MOMMY!!!!! I told him he lost his chance to go play. He started crying again. I took him outside while the girl was ringing me up and told him he needed to stop. He didn't....so I took McD's away.
And that's when the shrieking and crying happened. ALL the way home!! He even woke from his nap talking and crying about McD's.
It was like throwing water on the cute and cuddly Gizmo and having an evil Gremlin attack you.
And then I had work....woohoo.
Chelle }}i{{
He choose, McD's, of course! Well, it wasn't quite lunch time, we had to take Aaron home before work, drop the check to the Landlord, and get him some new clothes. So, we dropped Aaron off, picked up Xander's old clothes and headed out. We met with the Landlord, dropped the check off, had to run to the bank, and then to the clothing store.
At the bank and the clothing store is when all hell broke loose. He wanted to sit on the counter by me, I told him okay, as long as he didn't touch anything...first thing? he goes for the fingerprint thing at the bank...then kept wanting her calculator. I finally set him down, and he started crying. He stopped and gave him one more chance....
Then the clothing store, it's a used kids clothing and toys place. I had to wait in line to trade in his old clothes, (he had a three inch growth spurt over night!!!). As soon as he hit the door, he started running for the toys. I asked him to stop and come back, as the toys would be out of my sight....he didn't listen after two attempts to call him back, I went over, and dragged him back to the counter. I explained that maybe after we shop, he can go play, but until then, no touching.
Of course, there was touching!! Everything! All the clothes on his level were not the right size, and he would try and grab the hanger and all and show me, "I like this mommy!" only to pull it off the hanger. Now, it was cute the FIRST time, and put it back, explained, and went on. This kept happening, so I told him he couldn't play afterwards. He started to cry and yell. I told him if he didn't stop, he was going to loose McD's at this point. He dried right up.
Then we got to the counter where you could see all the toys hanging out...."MOMMY...mommy! Mommy! Mommy! MOMMY!!!!! I told him he lost his chance to go play. He started crying again. I took him outside while the girl was ringing me up and told him he needed to stop. He didn't....so I took McD's away.
And that's when the shrieking and crying happened. ALL the way home!! He even woke from his nap talking and crying about McD's.
It was like throwing water on the cute and cuddly Gizmo and having an evil Gremlin attack you.
And then I had work....woohoo.
Chelle }}i{{
Friday, April 3, 2009
Day 70 and 71. Still Sick and It's Snowing!!
Alright, so I've had this damn cold now for freakin' EVER!! I'm soooo sick of it! My nose won't stop draining!
And it's snowing outside! It was freakin' 50 degrees and now it's snowing!!! WTH?!
Anyhoo, I'm kinda in the mood to clean my house. Weird, I know. Go figure!
So, I think I'm going put on some Sarah McLachlan and clean!
Chelle }}i{{
And it's snowing outside! It was freakin' 50 degrees and now it's snowing!!! WTH?!
Anyhoo, I'm kinda in the mood to clean my house. Weird, I know. Go figure!
So, I think I'm going put on some Sarah McLachlan and clean!
Chelle }}i{{
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Day 69...A Fun Concert
A friend that has been out of town for a couple came back into town and called me up. She wanted to know if I wanted to go see this band tonight called Audrey Sessions. She knows that bass player and thought it would be fun.
Indeed it was! The bass players name is Alex. She's a hoot! We talked alot about everything. We even swapped phone numbers and I gave her my e-mail address too. They are signed with RCA. I talked to her about the songs I write and she wanted to see them. She asked if I could send them to her!
I got really excited! This might be the opportunity I've been looking for! I just need to copyright my stuff first before I send them to her.
Anyways, it's late and I have yoga in the morning.
Talk to you soon!!!
Chelle }}i{{
Indeed it was! The bass players name is Alex. She's a hoot! We talked alot about everything. We even swapped phone numbers and I gave her my e-mail address too. They are signed with RCA. I talked to her about the songs I write and she wanted to see them. She asked if I could send them to her!
I got really excited! This might be the opportunity I've been looking for! I just need to copyright my stuff first before I send them to her.
Anyways, it's late and I have yoga in the morning.
Talk to you soon!!!
Chelle }}i{{
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