Thursday, January 21, 2010

Why Does Everyone Think I'm Gay?!?!?!?!

Okay, this is definetly a rant blog today!!

I get hit on by women...alot (which I find flatering to a point). Coworkers have said I am. I even had a coworker tell me, "If you weren't married, I'd so be your girlfriend."

I walked in to work after I changed (On Tuesday), and I had on jeans and a leather coat. My hair is's only been like that for a couple boss looks at me and says, "Wow, you really do look like a lesbian." commenting of my outfit.

I'm sorry I like to wear my leather jacket. I'm sorry I have short hair. I'm sorry I like to wear leather braclets. I'm sorry I listen to all sorts of music, including listing some know lesbian artists amoung my favorites.

I don't understand. I'm happily married, I have a son. I am not Gay!!!!

...not that I have a problem with it. :-)

Thanks for letting me rant today!!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Reading a Good Book, PTSD (Yea!)

So, I'm seeing a counselor about my over-reaction to checking in a family that was in a bad car wreck.

She diagnosed me with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). Which, she was right on. Every time I approach my accident scene, I tense up. I get even worse if there is heavy traffic.

So, she is having me read this book called, "Feel The Fear...and Do It Anyway" by Susan Jeffers, Ph.D.

It's great!! I think it'll help me with my stage freight as well! I know I have a good singing voice, and I know my lyrics are great, I just need to work on my nerves!

One great quote in there stated, "If you knew you could handle anything that came your way, what would you possibly have to fear? The answer is: NOTHING!"

Have a great weekend! Mine's just about over!!

Chelle }}i{{

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I Have The World's Best Hubby!!

I forgot to mention in my last blog how much I love my hubby. He is so amazing and so wonderful!!!

I'm not trying to brag or anything, but or love is strong and great!!!

I have conversations with guys at work, and they always speak of how jealous they get with the women in their relationships. And it's sad to think about. Without trust, there is NO relationship. (Being I have a very healthy, "long" marriage and seem to be surviving, I get asked relationship questions). And by "long" I mean 6 years.

A wound cannot heal when infection plagues it.

Now, I admit that when we first got married, I had my brief moments of jealousy, and I know Aaron would too. But we got over it, and now consider it very flattering when someone "hits on us". I have guy friends at work who I will hug every day...They are like co-worker brothers. They're always looking out for me.

My point being is this, first of all, I thought Aaron was going to be home, he thought so too. Well, I invited my new guitarist over to start jamming and get some songs down.

Turns out that Aaron had scouts and had to leave the house almost right around the time my guitarist showed up. He's 26, and a "cute little boy" is the best way to describe him, because he just looks so young. lol

Anyhoo, we practiced for about an hour and a half. He is a VERY talented guitarist! I feel sooo lucky to have found him on Craig's list! We met last week, and this was our first "official unofficial practice" (our drummer couldn't make it).

Matt left right before Aaron got home. I greeted Aaron with an excited hug and kiss, saying "Thanks for trusting me." There aren't many hubby's who would let me do this [music/band] but there are even less that are okay with having him in our home practicing while Aaron was gone, and only a 4 year old as a witness.

Don't get me wrong, it's still not the ideal situation, but when all your band mates' schedules are pretty tight, it makes it hard for everyone to get together at once some weeks.

Anyhoo, just wanted to spread the message!!! The key to a long and healthy relationship is trust. It is a two way street with no detours, but it's the best damn street to be on!!! :-D

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Fun Day! Nerves Meet Music.

So, my guitarist came over today for our first unofficial practice (drummer wasn't available). But we had fun, got to feel each other out. He's really talented.

I just need to get my confidence up!! I do sing good, but I'm just so out of it!

I hate that! I'm good, I am confident in almost everything I do, but when I get up to sing, I get very discourage at my singing.

I need to stop that!!!

I have the talent!!!!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Bad Week For A Friend

I have a great friend, she's having a really bad week. I've been a shoulder for her to cry on this week.

I feel that I'm lucky to be her friend. I pray for her often. She is a good friend and a gentle soul. She has a good hubby and two great friends.

When it rains it pours.

Like I said before, I want one of those easy buttons. ;-)

Chelle }}i{{

Monday, January 11, 2010

There's Gotta Be A Button...

Like those "Easy Buttons" in those Staples commercial.

Something that will just help and make everything bad that's happened go away. Ya know?

Or a wand.

Don't worry about me, it's not me in troubles...just wishing I knew what to do to help someone.

Chelle }}i{{

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Found my Guitarist!!!

So, I met Matt, he audtitioned to be my lead guitarist.

He's a nice kid, talented too. We met up at Java tonight just to hang and try out some stuff. He's not used to an acoustic guitar, but bought one just for this group. He's been in thrash bands before, so he can play licks for sure, but he said he really wants something different. He can play many different generes. So, we played, had some fun, he was able to keep up with the songs I know, and by the 3 or four line was playing right along with me.

He's excited and can't wait to start practicing. It should work out really good!! I'm excited!

And we had these two bums approach us (we were outside playing) the one wanted to play my guitar and kept trying to touch it, even though I said back off. I don't care for other people touching my instruments!! Matt was the same way. Plus, new strings, don't want to get them gunked up. Then he asked for a dollar so he and his friend could get a beer. Said nope, don't drink and won't pay for it.

The "leader" bum then said, "well, that's ok, your still cool." ROFL!!!!