Day 24

I was at work today, it was pretty hairy. I have a friend getting married at the hotel, and she has people coming in.

I was so excited...until all of her people started coming in, and they seem to have the wrong room types. They are all supposed to have suites, and I'm getting the brunt of the people. They're not happy and very demanding. Which, yes I would be too, however, when I showed them the proof on the contract, they were still pissed off.

So, I was going to e-mail my friend about it, when I checked my myspace, she messaged me too asking the same thing. I told her to bring her contract in and we'll take a look...they're not much else I can do.

And before work, I was in the shower, when I heard the doorbell. I thought about ignoring it, but then there was a knock too. So, I turn off my WARM shower and head to the door dripping wet and cold. I open the door to find an older teenage girl, probably 16 or 17 and a little girl, probably 8ish. I just have my floating, dripping head out the door.

This girl asked if I had a brown boxer dog. I said no. She proceeded to tell that MY dog got out and bit their dog....

I cut her off before she could finish. "That's impossible, my dog's been inside for over..." She cut me off, "Yes, it was your dog, a brown boxer."

"I do NOT own a boxer, I have a German Sheppard." I'm trying to get these girl off my porch so I could get back in the shower. They kept insisting that it was my dog. Finally, I open the door wide and show them Koda in his kennel. I think the towel covered most of my body! lol. But the girls looked at Koda and the younger one goes, "Oh....no, that's not the dog.

No sorry or anything they just kinda walked away. I would have helped them find the dog, but I was too pissed at the time to do anything. And so, I just shut the door VERY firmly.

Anyoo, off to bed!

Chelle }}i{{

Day 23 Emotions and Accomplishments

I missed Yoga this morning because Xander was up until 4:30 a.m. It was horrible! But I was able to go with him to the Mommy and Me Yoga class for free. Xander seems to like it, but he was bouncing all over the place. We'll see!!

We had our neighbor's over. They're a hoot, I really like them. They are rough around the edges, and since the dad up and left, things are really quite over there. They were trying hard to make it better for the kids, in a good neighborhood, good school, etc...and the dad didn't seem to want that. He's now apparently back into crime and doing drugs. I'm sad, but not at the same time. They seem to be happier and doing better without him.

It's times like this that make me thankful for Aaron and all that he does for us. He loves us so much and keeps me very grounded. I'm so use to doing thirty things at once and not getting any of them done! He helps me focus on one task at a time. I'm still trying to do that! lol

Speaking of focusing, I was getting worried about my deadline for school coming up so quick and not having the time to finish. I called my school to plead with them to extend my deadline. I was prepared with, "I've moved three times in the past year, I've had surgery, working graveyards, both my Mother-in-law and my Father-in-law having surgery...etc" Though, My mom's and dad's surgery's didn't really affect me, I was willing to use stretching of the truth....

Didn't need to! They said it's just a "suggested deadline" and that I should continue my studies, that I have plenty of time! Wooohoo!! I was sooooo relieved!!! So, I'm changing one of my goals for school to just finish it within a certain time frame....I don't know what time frame yet, I'll have to decide...I'm thinking 6 months!

And Xander's doing REALLY good on his potty-training. He went ALL DAY in his under-roos without wetting them!! I was soooo excited!!!

Aaron keeps talking about having another one (for the past 4 months or so...), but I'm not ready yet. And it seems like he keeps bringing it up, like he's pushing me into it. He mentioned it again on Sunday night right before work. I told him that we could talk about it later, when I got home from work. He asked, "Why do you always runaway from the subject?" and I forgot what exactly I said, but it was something along the lines of, "Because I need to..."

So, when I got home, He was still awake...it's usually a 30% chance he's awake. And I told him that I feel like he's pressuring me, and I'm not ready.

And the reasoning's behind it, is not because we can't afford it, it's true, we can't. But it's two major things. One, we can't spend enough time with Xander as it is....how is he going to feel when less time is spent on him?

Second, I hurt, every damn day I hurt. Some days are better than others. And this is WITH medication. I have injections in my back monthly, I take muscle relaxants, nerve relievers, and pain killers daily! If and when I get pregnant, the only thing I can do is my injections in my back. Which, they help, a TON! But my main concern is my muscle relaxants. I stopped taking them for two days, and I could barely move the second day.

I'm so scared. I hurt for four months, actually about a year and four months. Two months while Xander was still inside, and then the rest afterwards. I would cry all the time. I hurt so bad. And I tear up just thinking about going back to that place again. To hurt so bad, you can't pick up your child is very frustrating. To walk so stiff, that all you need is some green paint and bolts to look EXACTLY like Frankenstein...you even moan like he does because you just hurt.

Aaron wants us to go to the temple and pray about it. I keep avoiding it, because I just am so scared.

I don't want to go there again, I can't. I won't make it.

So, some accomplishments and some emotions today.

Day 22

I'm really enjoying my yoga! I do love it so...I'm becoming more flexible all the time!!

We had a budget meeting with my bishop and my bishops' wife. She helping us start a budget. He is having us fill out a form to help us out and them he wants us to meet again on Sunday briefly to see what's going on, and what we do need, which is pretty much rent right now.

We were going to need food, but our friend helped us with that!!!

Anyhoo, off to bed!!!

Day 21, A BLESSING!!!!

Okay, so my friends that are moving to Qatar, I offered to take their son over-night tonight so they could finish packing and have some alone time.

So, Jackson is hanging with us, and the fam came over for dinner too, we had enchiladas!! Yum!!

And the big blessing? They pretty much gave us ALL their food from the freezer and fridge, and also alot of canned food!! I was sooooo thankful, I almost cried. I told her that we're actually seeing the bishop tomorrow to get some help, and here she comes with TWO huge Tupperware bins FULL of food!!!

So, I'm so thankful, and I know the Lord works in great ways in life and I know that my friends were inspired to give us their food they couldn't use.

So, now, I'm sitting here and enjoying their son one last time!!! Hopefully they will go to bed soon! I'm tired! lol

Day 20!!

Wow! Already 20 days!? Sheesh!!

I'm really tired, so this will be quick. Did my normal daily's, but nothing else.

My shoulder's hurting pretty good today! *bleck*

Day 20

Today was church! I LOVE going, it's fun!!

Sad news though, my friends, the ones that are moving next month to Qatar, are actually moving on Wed!!! Her hubby just informed her! I think she misunderstood, or got the dates wrong....I'm not sure...I was too sad and not quite paying attention when she told me. lol

So, we're going to get together one more time.

I worked 4-12 today, so I'm for sure tired! And now, I'm off to cut Aaron's hair....oh joy!!

Chelle }}i{{

Day 19

Today was a *blah* day. I was feeling better, didn't want to eat much. Got to work just ravenous!!!

Work was okay, rather slow, but I kept myself as busy as I could, b/c I don't want to be sent home early....I can't afford it!!

After doing the bills, etc. I looked at our account and saw how much we had. I then said, "crap, we still have to pay rent." which, we'll pay next week. However, Aaron's checks next week, will be around $600. We're going to be about $200-300 short on rent.

*sigh*

We're going to talk to our Bishop tomorrow for some help. What can you do? But hey, that's what the church's welfare system is for....to help those that are down.

Chelle }}i{{