My Mom Looks Up To Me!!!!!

I was talking with my mom today on the phone.  It started it out in the usual frustrating manner.  She'll talk your ear off about random stuff that you've heard already.  She'll then tell you the negative aspects of the goals that you are aiming for.  She claims, "I am not a pessimist, I am a realist."

So, as our conversation continued, I became more frustrated with her.  I started to express my frustration when she said something that floored me.

She told me that she doesn't mean to sound or come off as critical or harsh.  She said she feels she was over-protective with my siblings and I.  The reason?  Fear and rejection.  She said she had been involved in "Spectacular failures" in life and she didn't want us to feel the pain of that.

She told me how proud she was of me, that she looks up to me because I am so brave.  She said she wishes she was braver, that she would go and do the things I do, that if I want to do it I will go and try it.  If I fail, I say oh well and keep going. She said if she was presented with the opportunity to do a marathon, she wouldn't have done it, not believing her to be able to do the marathon.

My mom looks up to ME!  I cried.  Never in my life would I have thought she would.  I've always known she was proud of the things I've done, but it just blew me away.

The funny thing is?  I learned to be brave from her.  I learned not to take crap, to love me for me and not let anyone tell me otherwise.

What a wonderful surprise!

Chelle }}i{{

How Did I Get Spam On My BLOG?!?!!?

Ok, so I saw I got a comment on my blog, thought Yea!  Someone left me LOVES!!!

Yeah, it was some kid spamming on my blog!!!  WTH?!  REALLY?!  Is nothing sacred any more?!

*sigh*

People go so low for buck.

Chelle }}i{{

Had My 2nd Nerve Burn Today...

AAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!

It sucks, but I know I'll feel better in a few days.  So, right now, hurting, but should be better soon!

*SIGH*

Chelle }}i{{

Work Frustrations

So, had a bad night at work.  It was great until the last little bit.  And I'm more mad at myself than anything.

I felt bad, there was a girl that kept asking me what's wrong...I finally got mad at her and said, "look, I know you're trying to help, but I just DON'T want to talk right now."  I know she was trying to help, but I was in that "don't give  a crap about anyone right now, leave me alone." mood.

Anyhoo, here's hoping tomorrow's better.

Room Purging

Well, the sun is out FINALLY!!!!!!!!  Feeling like being in a cleaning mood.  It's time for the annual purging of Xander's room after his birthday!!  So many new toys, time to box them up and put them in the garage!!

<3

Insomniac

I'm finally horribly exhausted today.  I haven't slept well in a week.  But, it's my weekend, I have three days off.  I'm very happy that I'm so tired!!!

I've been in a musical mood the last couple days too!  I've been playing my guitar and listing to some new music.  It's been a hoot!

I did learn a new chord today!  F#!  So, I'm hoping to keep doing that part of my goal!  I also am going to be picking up my piano again.  That will really help with the band.

I'm also thinking about going to culinary school.  I think it'll be fun and really worth my time!!!  :)

Day 460...wow!

Ok, so I just updaed all my goals...holy hannah!!!!  I've come so far!!!!

I think my favorite goal I just passed off was completing my bike race/marathon!  I was able to do 43 miles in it!  While I didn't finish the race...I participated and it was a NEAT experience!!

Conference is on...better head on over and listen and get ready for work!  *sigh!*