Idaho Pics

Well, they seem to be on the other computer...so, I'll have to do it later.  Lol

Mom and Dad's Anniversary, My Idaho Trip

So, I'm a little behind, but oh well! lol

On Feb. 2nd (better known as Groundhog's Day), was my parents, well would have been their 37th wedding anniversary.

I haven't been able to keep in good contact with her do to cell phone limitations in the wilderness of Idaho.

Well, I've been really worried about her. She seems to put on a good "voice mask"...but I know it's hard.

Being suddenly without someone that's been apart of your life for more than 35 years. It really was rough...the good times were great, the hard times even harder. This is what makes it so rough...sometimes it's easy not to hurt, when you think of the little daily idiosencrencies that annoyed you beyond belief...yet those are the things you'll miss the most.

So, on Monday the 1st, heading into work, I felt the sudden prompting that I HAD to be in Idaho to see mom and I had to leave ASAP. So, I took a vacation day the next day and headed off that night after work! I crashed at my friend Melisha's house a little over half way from Reno and Grangeville, ID to sleep for a couple of hours before heading out again.

Long story short, I surprised my mom with a "Hey, was in the neighborhood (10 hour drive), thought since you don't have a date tonight, that I'd take you out tonight."

We cried hugged, Xander was SOOO excited to see his Grandma "From Vegas" (still trying to get used to saying Gma Dobbs or "In Idaho", lol). And we went out to Chinese Food...aparently it came highly recomended (I think by people who lost their taste buds in a tragic fire)...in other words, it was edible, and the company was WAY better than the food! lol

Rule of thumb? Never eat chinese food in a USA town where the Cows out number the people in a 5-1 ratio, even if the cook "came from China"....don't believe it!!! lol

Then, we went to my Uncle's Ranch the Next day and saw my gpa and gma. My gma is really bad with Alzheimer's...apparently, we caught her on a good day. She seemed relativly lucid. She knew me and Xander, she just went into repeat mode about every 15 minutes. I'm scared, I don't think she's going to be here much longer. :-(

But back to fun!

We saw Elk, Deer, Cows and all sorts of birds! I think we even saw a Wolf. There was this HUGE black "dog" in the middle of a hay field...the only black dog I know of on the ranch was standing right by us...hmmmm

Oh! And we went down to the Salmon River and we saw bear prints, deer, elk, raccon (I think) and possible wolf.

Anyhoo, we had fun, and I'm posting pics next!!!!

Why Does Everyone Think I'm Gay?!?!?!?!

Okay, this is definetly a rant blog today!!

I get hit on by women...alot (which I find flatering to a point). Coworkers have said I am. I even had a coworker tell me, "If you weren't married, I'd so be your girlfriend."

I walked in to work after I changed (On Tuesday), and I had on jeans and a leather coat. My hair is short...it's only been like that for a couple years...my boss looks at me and says, "Wow, you really do look like a lesbian." commenting of my outfit.

I'm sorry I like to wear my leather jacket. I'm sorry I have short hair. I'm sorry I like to wear leather braclets. I'm sorry I listen to all sorts of music, including listing some know lesbian artists amoung my favorites.

I don't understand. I'm happily married, I have a son. I am not Gay!!!!

...not that I have a problem with it. :-)

Thanks for letting me rant today!!

Reading a Good Book, PTSD (Yea!)

So, I'm seeing a counselor about my over-reaction to checking in a family that was in a bad car wreck.

She diagnosed me with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). Which, she was right on. Every time I approach my accident scene, I tense up. I get even worse if there is heavy traffic.

So, she is having me read this book called, "Feel The Fear...and Do It Anyway" by Susan Jeffers, Ph.D.

It's great!! I think it'll help me with my stage freight as well! I know I have a good singing voice, and I know my lyrics are great, I just need to work on my nerves!

One great quote in there stated, "If you knew you could handle anything that came your way, what would you possibly have to fear? The answer is: NOTHING!"

Have a great weekend! Mine's just about over!!

Chelle }}i{{

I Have The World's Best Hubby!!

I forgot to mention in my last blog how much I love my hubby. He is so amazing and so wonderful!!!

I'm not trying to brag or anything, but or love is strong and great!!!

I have conversations with guys at work, and they always speak of how jealous they get with the women in their relationships. And it's sad to think about. Without trust, there is NO relationship. (Being I have a very healthy, "long" marriage and seem to be surviving, I get asked relationship questions). And by "long" I mean 6 years.

A wound cannot heal when infection plagues it.

Now, I admit that when we first got married, I had my brief moments of jealousy, and I know Aaron would too. But we got over it, and now consider it very flattering when someone "hits on us". I have guy friends at work who I will hug every day...They are like co-worker brothers. They're always looking out for me.

My point being is this, first of all, I thought Aaron was going to be home, he thought so too. Well, I invited my new guitarist over to start jamming and get some songs down.

Turns out that Aaron had scouts and had to leave the house almost right around the time my guitarist showed up. He's 26, and a "cute little boy" is the best way to describe him, because he just looks so young. lol

Anyhoo, we practiced for about an hour and a half. He is a VERY talented guitarist! I feel sooo lucky to have found him on Craig's list! We met last week, and this was our first "official unofficial practice" (our drummer couldn't make it).

Matt left right before Aaron got home. I greeted Aaron with an excited hug and kiss, saying "Thanks for trusting me." There aren't many hubby's who would let me do this [music/band] but there are even less that are okay with having him in our home practicing while Aaron was gone, and only a 4 year old as a witness.

Don't get me wrong, it's still not the ideal situation, but when all your band mates' schedules are pretty tight, it makes it hard for everyone to get together at once some weeks.

Anyhoo, just wanted to spread the message!!! The key to a long and healthy relationship is trust. It is a two way street with no detours, but it's the best damn street to be on!!! :-D

Fun Day! Nerves Meet Music.

So, my guitarist came over today for our first unofficial practice (drummer wasn't available). But we had fun, got to feel each other out. He's really talented.

I just need to get my confidence up!! I do sing good, but I'm just so out of it!

I hate that! I'm good, I am confident in almost everything I do, but when I get up to sing, I get very discourage at my singing.

I need to stop that!!!

I have the talent!!!!

Bad Week For A Friend

I have a great friend, she's having a really bad week. I've been a shoulder for her to cry on this week.

I feel that I'm lucky to be her friend. I pray for her often. She is a good friend and a gentle soul. She has a good hubby and two great friends.

When it rains it pours.

Like I said before, I want one of those easy buttons. ;-)

Chelle }}i{{